Of course I changed when you left us. What parent wouldn’t? ………..

It has been a few years since you died. I used to not even be able to say that word but do now because you did. You took a piece of my heart with you. This time of year is hard because you loved Holidays. I laugh, I enjoy your nieces and i enjoy life but it does not change the loss of you. My heart still cries and I still cry. Not everyday but I think of you everyday.

People say I changed well yeah. I did. I lost something worth more than any money in the World. I lost you. I am blessed to have your sister and her precious babies. you would have been the best Aunt ever. I laugh with them. The oldest 12, knows all about you and she even writes you notes and ask about your life. The baby is only 15 months so of course she doesn’t yet. Your sister misses having someone to talk to. I miss your laughter and how you never took life so seriously. Little things were that. Nothing to stress over.

You had challenges with Autism but you made it through struggle after struggle. I am a bit harsher now with life. I am not the old me. but I don’t have to be. the “new” me that came a bit after you died saw life from a different view. I still love, I still feel blessed with your sister and family but I will get “over” losing you. I love you. Always. Love, mom.

The sad story of Puppy mills…. here is mine… Nitro…

I have to start by explaining my husband thinks all people are good and do mean to be bad. I am of a very kind heart but I know that bad people exist. Life. My story is about Nitro, our Long haired Shepherd. First, I HATE puppy mills. My two dogs are rescues and that is just my personal choice. If someone wants a pet from a reputable breeder I am okay with that just not puppy mills. Anyway, here is Nitro’s story.

For years my husband had wanted a long haired German Shepherd. I was not ready yet because I had researched just how much care it requires until the time came that we could give him the needed time. he wanted a Male. not to breed just to have. Soooo, we looked and looked. He had saved over time and he found one in Virginia, I found one in North Ga. 2 hours away. His was 12 hours one way. The page looked great, the way she advertised her pups and on and on.

Anyway, he had his 1,600.00 dollars and off he goes. 2 hours before he got there, she called and said she had just noticed at 12 weeks that one of his testicles had not dropped but she was sure it would. (No, it is hereditary passed from father to son). He called and I begged him to turn back but he said he was sure she knew because her page was so promising. Twenty minutes before she was supposed to give him directions, she called and said to meet her at a local store since she was in town with the puppy. Again, I begged him to come back. But he went and picked up his puppy that he named Nitro.

He brought the beautiful puppy home and we took him to the Vet the next day for a check up. We were informed the testicle would NOT drop and would require an operation. At six months, they had to cut his stomach open as the testicle was lodged in his intestines. More money. Nitro seemed well once he recovered until we noticed him limping a bit at two years old. Aside from the monthly Vet visits, we made an appointment. Test were run and the Vet came back with the news that Nitro had Arthritis in both front legs. the operation would be an estimated 16,000.00. Even worse it would have to be every two years because it would come back. Operation or put him to sleep.

I came home and just cried. I knew we didn’t have 16,000.00 much less every two years so I found what I could to help him. Krill oil, Chondroitin and other things to help. They did. For a year. Nitro is now 6 years old and lives like he is 18 dog years. One leg is stiff. I am so heartbroken when I see him everyday and try to find new meds to help. I am glad we saved him from that horrid place (she was shut down after I reported her like 15 times). But on the other hand, it is horrible to watch him live his life like this. I am still doing all that I can to help but PLEASE do NOT ignore the red flags. Last minute findings of issues, not wanting you to come to their home and so many more. Help shut down puppy mills. Buy from someone you can meet and see their home.

I saw a Bobcat. At 2 a.m. or maybe it was a Mountain Lion. I didn’t even know we had these things in Ga…..

I forgot to give my niece her keys after I had checked on a pet at her grooming Salon and she lives an hour from me sooooo I get home at 12 and yay, there they are. so, I had to turn around and go all of the way back. Anyway, I was close to home around 2 a.m. and coming up the road I saw movement and looked over and saw this huge cat. I slowed down and since no one was behind I pulled to the side of the road. I looked and saw this huge cat just staring as it sat. I was so tired I thought maybe I was imagining it until it moved again. I was in awe but not enough to get out and try to get a pic. This thing was huge. I never even knew we had them here. It looked like the one on the left.

Counting Blessings amid the Chaos……………………

Last weekend a car slammed into my back and it was scary. It got me to thinking about how our Country is in a spin right now and how everything seems to be falling apart sometimes. But I was reading some about the Depression, life in the 1800’s and other things to try and find things we can still be grateful for. I found so many but here are some I often take for granted. A hot shower with plenty of soap and shampoo. There was a time when water was boiled over a pot once a week (If you were lucky) and you had to bathe from that along with several other people. I have food. Lot’s of choices. Stores, farmer’s markets, Farms and so many places and choices. I read where at one time people would eat rotted potatoes, vegetables or anything that would keep them alive. I have Medical care and access to Antibiotics on things that used to kill people when a simple pill could have helped them. So I see things in a better view that for now, for today we are still so blessed. Have a great day/evening wherever you are!

I have a bully in my home…….My smallest kitten…….lol……….

Our smallest kitten is a bully. Yes, she is a very big bully for such a small tot. She slaps our Pomeranian which I scold her for but she doesn’t care. she hoards the toys and steals them from the other kitten. She steals all of the lap time even though we make her share that time, it is a battle to keep her from trying to push them off. Yes, I never imagined I would have a bully in my own home. lol. Have a great evening/day wherever you may be!

I love my animals…. But……lol…

I have cats and dogs. No, not a ton but I think my outside cats are mad at me. I switched their soft food and obviously they do not like it. They eat dry and soft but now when I go out, they run in front of me, trip me and then wait until I move over and dash in front of me so I trip again. lol. The little brats are mad. lol. I love them but maybe they are telling me I better switch back. for my own health, I better.

I need to arrange my Office …..

You know since you blog and some of us do art as well among other things. I mean where do i start? How did I get so much stuff and yet I use half of it. I have Journals, book material I am writing on, all kinds of a variety of things I either have written looking to publish or tons and I mean tons of art stuff. I get so overwhelmed form the stuff that i am so thankful I have what I need but I cannot get mind uncluttered to fix it up. Soooo, my goal now is try and read a ton of your post today and also fix this room so I enjoy it and have the tranquility to want to write more and make more art! have a great day/ev