I am who I am….

Sometimes I am too blunt. I am honest. I fail constantly when trying to get people I know to understand. I have lost children. I love the child I have. I love her babies. I am happy and yet I have anxiety and i often find that being an Empath/ Discerner can be so trying. i do yoga in my home. I try and stay fit but I also have an appetite for sweet things when i do not need them. I am kind and will help anyone in need but I am often used but forgiving. I DO have a sharp tongue with family kids and teens when they are disrespectful. I love to garden and watch and yes, run from Lucifer the Chihuahua terror in the neighborhood. I am so many things but most of all I am me and that is okay by me because I know I strive to be the best I can. Have a great day/evening wherever you are! 🙂

One single Rose……..

After a very hectic day, I saw the photo sent to me. I had rushed to help my mom and did not go into my sisters as planned. My sister sent me a photo on my phone of three roses on her table. I quickly put hearts and started driving. I found out later that day, my ex- brother in law whom I still consider my brother and family, had thought my mom and I were going in at my sisters. He had bought each of us a single beautifully wrapped rose with a Happy Mother’s Day to each of us. I have to say I cried. It was beautiful. But even more beautiful was the heart he put into it. I think one of the most meaningful gifts ever presented to me. Thank you Jeff. I love you.

Life without fb or much of it anyway…..

I have taken a step away from fb. I have online groups so i check on those but the drama from fb, all of the restrictions, fb jail, not meeting community standards and just all of it in general has become a hassle. as well as getting drawn into it. I just seem to find more and more pain from it than pleasure. People use it to shun you or to dwell out their anger at someone or just so many dismal things. I didn’t even realize how much I was getting caught up in it until I have taken a step back starting a few weeks ago. I think I am doing so much better being away from all of it. The World needs more face to face and less online robotic communication. Just my opinion of course! Have a great day/evening where ever you are!

Planted some beautiful flowers….. The Gardens for me are a bit of Peace…..

When I am at extreme anxiety, I love the time of year when I can plant a garden. I love the ones I plant that are already in bloom, I love watching the seedlings that I collect each year from my Zinnias and Marigolds as they sprout and grow. Then I have my Perennials that come back every year that are not flowers. Ferns, Hostas and a gamble on the Lantanas. I adore seeing the Butterflies and Dragonflies as they fly about and pick where they will land. I even have a Hummingbird that visits here. lol. The renewal of life in these beautiful flowers gives me a renewal of hope. Have a great day/evening where ever you are! 🙂

I am me… and I accept and receive that….

I am good, kind and loving.

I am angry ,frustrated and confused.

I am artistic, an empath and I feel emotions.

I am a lover of Nature and despise the abuse of animals.

I am loyal, devoted and true.

I am short tempered, easy to hurt and quick to strike back.

i am a survivor of abuse and I have learned to survive after loss.

I am me. Many things good and equally bad. But I am human so it is as it is.

Market today……. I love the variety of choices! ……

Today I am going to the huge Farmer’s Market I go to about once a year. They have everything! Exotic foods( not where they torture anything, my animal obsession could not handle that) Olives from all other, unique vegetables and an assortment of spices, bakery goods, foods to sample and just so much! It is like the Festival for food lovers! So excited! What are All of you doing okay? Have a great day/evening wherever you are!