I cannot seem to find it and it is so annoying.
One thing I am learning more and more when dealing with panic and anxiety is how to let go and re-focus. I am learning to let myself focus on other things. It is HARD and I am not always successful but that motto, “One day at a time” is becoming what I use everyday. I try not to let thing s and people cause me to over think. And, I am learning to encourage myself that I AM a good person and if people have issues with me and I have done nothing wrong, then why over think it or get anxious or panic? And I am learning, slowly, that life throws hurtles but I have to step over them and focus on the good. Things happen, it is life and I cannot change some things. So, I am on that journey and I hope all of my friends who have this issue, can journey along with me. 🙂
Yep, that’s right. When Life throws you lemons, brew a cup of coffee or tea. Sit down and sip the good strong taste. I am not a laid back guru type but I do meditate sometimes. Just to get away from it all. I find music soothing and when life turns sour, I have to do something to control the hot temper I am known to have.
I am very outspoken and I am not one that can easily curb my tongue but I do try. Sooooooo, I try to find ways when life throws a curve to boomerang it back so I can smile and act like the smiling sweet and calm person I am often not. Since I have anxiety this is VERY important. I will overthink why there is a reason my egg yolk busted. There must be someone cursing me that day. hahaha.
So, I guess I am trying to encourage those of us who can get discouraged easily to find ways to fight back without killing someone. I wouldn’t think that would be a very good idea. So, remember throw that lemon in the trash and get to brewing.
It has been a while since i was on here. Life gets chaotic and well, i just got lost in a million things. But, I am back on and so I hope you all are still here.
Sometimes sleep eludes me and I cannot find my ability to just go to sleep.
I might be sad or mad or just in a moment where my mind is still racing with thoughts because I think. A LOT. I think about life and people and love and loss.
I think about why or who or where or what might or might not be. Sometimes I just cannot sleep because I am excited or God only knows why it might be but tonight I talked to an owl. Crazy, yes? Probably but it was out there as it is every night making its hoot so I tried to mimic it just to see what would happen. It answered back.
It understood my voice but I have no clue what it was saying. I think sometimes life is like me and the owl. We hear but we cannot understand what others are saying. We mimic the lives of others and yet we do not even understand why they live like they do.
Tonight I talked to an owl and the owl talked to me but I will never understand what he was trying to say. Maybe we should learn from the owl. My thought for the day. lol
I wrote this when I watched a lifetime movie. I do not like like lifetime but got talked into it. lol. So I thought this song was good for it. hahahahahaah
A COUNTRY and/or LOVE SONG
We lived together for 12 long years,
before you finally said I do.
I didn’t know that piece of paper would mean for us, that we were through.
You said you would love me forever,
I didn’t know that meant for a day.
Cause you left me the very next morning,
When Piggly wiggly Sue, stole your heart away.
Now I’m stuck with six kids, ages 11 down to three
While you took her bowlin’
And you watched movies in 3D.
My heart has been broken, yeah, broken in two
So I hope you are happy and she’s happy with you.
I had us big dreams you know, cookouts and figs,
But you left me here, with kids, chickens and pigs.
Well, it’s been a month now and I’m starting to heal,
I guess in love, well, nothin is real.
So here is some news for you, Romeo Joe,
A tidbit of info you ought to know.
Last week my BFF Kathy set me up on a date
I have really found true love, guess it aint never too late.
The next night he gave me a ring, a real beauty divine,
This morn we got married at quarter till nine.
If you want someone to listen, never say you are wrong, always be kind and never seem to make a mistake, befriend a nun. I hold few of those qualities because I am human.