When I am at extreme anxiety, I love the time of year when I can plant a garden. I love the ones I plant that are already in bloom, I love watching the seedlings that I collect each year from my Zinnias and Marigolds as they sprout and grow. Then I have my Perennials that come back every year that are not flowers. Ferns, Hostas and a gamble on the Lantanas. I adore seeing the Butterflies and Dragonflies as they fly about and pick where they will land. I even have a Hummingbird that visits here. lol. The renewal of life in these beautiful flowers gives me a renewal of hope. Have a great day/evening where ever you are! 🙂
I fell asleep early so of course i was wide awake at 4:30 a.m. Normally I would try and go back to sleep but today I just got up and decided to make the best of it. I am glad I did. I watched from my window as the cats played in the early morning dew. Chasing what I am not sure but it was funny to watch. I got my morning Java and walked outside to hear birds singing, a comfortable coolness in the air and I saw some early flowers that are starting to open. It was a nice way to start the day. Have a great day/evening where ever you may be! 🙂
It has been beautiful out today even if it felt like a 110 degrees. I got some yard work done and came in to get some cold iced tea. I drank some and then went back out where I saw my female Shepherd, Raven, had escaped. Good thing she didn’t connect with lucifer, the neighbors dog. Anyways, this is one smart dog. She had decided to escape by digging a hole and the biting on the privacy fence until she could use the broken wood to snap the other piece (wooden by the way).
Did I mention I had to shut off the water to the outside faucet because she can turn it on by herself? She always finds a way like that Velociraptor on Jurassic Park. She has found every possible way to escape just so she can prove a point I guess because she never leaves the yard. I guess she just wants to see if she can escape. lol. Yes, we spend tons of time with her and our larger Shep Nitro. But wow. There is nothing this dog cannot figure out! So, after playing tag around the yard for an hour, she quit and went back into the backyard. I am sweating, out of breath and exhausted. She is happy, chasing a ball and getting yelled at by Nitro when she misbehaves. hahahahah. Have a great day/night fellow bloggers!
I just take a breath and say a prayer of thanks for surviving the knocks coming my way, for the ability to fight and keep trying. I look at the beautiful sky, the birds sweetly chirping and the sound of beautiful music. I think of all I can do and that I have an escape when fear tries to over take me. And I battle the people or things that try to destroy me. Sometimes, yeah, I cry because I know in some cases, I cannot save them or stop them from doing what they do to me. I am blessed that I can do it. That I can keep standing and trying. I know in life we have battles. But today, at least one day, each at a time I can take a breath. And I smile.
I am now trying (I know, always trying something new but hey,lol) the thought system of just trying to believe and really believing each day is going to have something great. Something in the day that captures my attention even if it just a beautiful butterfly. Something that lets me know, hey it is okay and today is good! I know life throws us punches and recently learning more about addicts and addiction, I NEED to see the beauty in things or my anxiety will take over. so that is my new yoga thought or whatever you want to call it so fellow friends and bloggers, I hope you believe today that YOU will find something beautiful in a world sometimes filled with junk. 🙂
I do battle anxiety but I know there is a ray of light behind this dark cloud of junk that tries to over power me. I overthink, I over everything. But I see the light that shines through and that keeps me trying. I see the ray of hope and it gives me hope that I can over come this. I see those who struggle with me and how we lift each other up when things seem dim. So, Behind every cloud there IS a ray of light.
I am learning to overcome things that make me anxious, learning being the key word. I do great and then it seems that tiny things will cause me to stumble. So, I am just bumbling along on my journey, enjoying some great days and then falling down when I have days that every tiny thing will make me fall down.
But I AM learning and I AM trying so I see that as a fantastic step up from where I was a year ago! I know those who suffer from panic and anxiety like I do will understand how hard this walk is and how strong you have to try and be to overcome it. Maybe I can overcome this but if not, maybe I can learn to live with it a little bit better. Have a great evening!
Women are often, too often, defined by their outer beauty. That is natural I assume as the human eye is attracted to what it has been trained to see as beauty. But what if we could only see the persons inner beauty before we ever saw their face? I know men are judged by their looks also but this is just about us women. What if we met, talked or socialized only by means of not being able to see the face or body and then after a few of these occasions, we met in person.
Would we be dismissed if we were not as beautiful as our voice sounded or the mental image did not meet the physical? What if someone just adored us from talking or messaging because we had a beautiful heart but then they met us and never contacted us again because they were agitated that we were not what they thought?
I think the greatest thing would be no matter what we looked like when we met, they had fallen in love with our heart and soul so what they saw was the beauty from inside that made them see beautiful outside NO MATTER how they had visualized us before.