Seems like everything keeps going haywire right now but we are all having our struggles through these times. I am hanging on to my rope life life crossing these rapid waters. It seems one thing gets clear and another undercurrent comes and tries to pull me under. But on the flip side, I try to stay strong and put on my armor and fight it. And so far, getting through. I still have the ability to laughter at the devil dog across the street. he is back to 100%. I am blessed with a new baby in the family and she keeps everyone in love with her sweet smiles. Life is good just turbulent right now. I hope all of you are staying strong too. If not, get on here with me. We can all hold virtual hands together united. 🙂
In this time of seclusions, changes and upturning World, the Empath mind is in a whirpool of Emotions. Or for me. It seems that the time I AM around others now is almost on super hype. Like they are sending thoughts into my brain. If you are not an Empath you will think I am crazy but if you are you will understand. It seems to have heightened my sense of reading people and at times just people I see on the street. It is crazy but I am letting much of it go to keep my sanity. Beware! the emotional vampires are on the rise as well as the thoughts that will make you feel like you are in overload. Shout out to my fellow Empaths. We are okay but probably struggling!
I hope today, whether it was your day earlier or your day now had or have a beautiful day. I hope today is filled with joy, love, beautiful things and just happiness. We all need some of that right now in this chaotic strange Virus world. I have been going out of quarantine slowly and I feel somewhat out of place. Some are wearing mask, some are not, I am trying to be careful and social distance but I have also missed human interaction. we were designed to be around other people and not just facetime or whatever. But either way, I hope for all of us, it is just simply a beautiful day!
My case was more extreme than others but I want to share what I have experienced and what it did mentally. First, I went into quarantine because a new baby was coming and for us to see her, we had to be in quarantine. Each time 2 weeks. I have immunity issues so of course I was quarantining from others. Then my husband flew to California and so when he came back we had to quarantine for two weeks and then get tested. So, in all I had been in quarantine since late April, only going out when my dad died and to see my mom twice.
Recently, I have been slowly transitioning to getting out again. It has been a mind blower. During my time at home, I did Yoga,. meditation, Prayer, Tai Chi and writing as well as Art and Photography here at home. But, over time, I was getting writer’s block as I shared on here. I lost any desire for Art and I quit doing Photography. I just went in the same circle everyday. While I knew people who were getting it, I knew for me it was best to quarantine. MY CHOICE.
But, the transition back into Society has made me feel like a dog who wants to get back to its cage (not an actual cage). I would go out and I was so nervous, I just wanted to get back home. I was depressed if away from home. SO, While I am glad I was and I still AM being cautious, I was not prepared for this.
A couple of friends just got their test back after mine and both were Positive. I knew it was real. I have been extremely careful but neither knows how they got it. We were not around each other. I was tested because my husband flew to California and with a new baby in the family, we quarantined AGAIN for two weeks and then got tested. So, be safe, be careful do what you have to do but above all know it is real. I read about Covid parties where they are trying to get it to see. Please don’t.
I have been waiting for the Covid results that came back negative and that was great! But in the days waiting, I pushed my Yoga, meditation, and Prayer as much as I could! I thought I would fall out but I had to do it to stay sane. I did it over and over and over everyday but I am glad. It helped even if my Anxiety kept screaming “You are going to have it!” my mind was at least calmed from a Nervous break down by doing all of these things. I am so glad now that I did because it kept me on at least a base level of sanity. lol
I am used to being alone for long periods of no company or etc. But this quarantine of going no where and seeing no one except my husband it can drive you nuts. But I am trying to work on doing more positive things. I have done so much outside it is useless but too hot right now anyway. I have turned to trying my photography and painting again along with exercise and other things. I have started watching movies again. I went almost a year with very little interaction with the telly! Sooooo, if you are locked in, just try and find something that you never had time for before or couldn’t do because you were busy!
Actually they have been around for a while. Similar to mad cow disease but now they are saying humans can contract it from their urine, etc. etc. and of course by eating them. But it cautions mainly hunters and say’s to watch for the signs of a Zombie type walk and stuff like that. So, I am waiting anxiously for the Dinosaur eggs. I think maybe I will select a one of those tiny ones that group together but I will just have one. Kind of like a baby lizard. lol. Or maybe next we will have a new version of dragonflies. I posted a pic here of the alleged toxic blue lone Dragonfly of the Amazon. lol. No, just a joke pic I made. I have to do something. so I am creating my own monsters. lol. I think I might need some interaction with another human or two. Have a great day/night fellow bloggers!
I just wrote on how the Empath feelings are a low right now and BOOM anxiety hits! Soooo, needless to say, that kicked in and then I starting getting vibes from text and calls and that sent it into overdrive. Of course the anxiety didn’t help because it pushed into high gear all of the stuff that comes with it. And dreams last night about my daughter so I called my other daughter and she is over the top on everything she has going on so we were not able to help each other much. but we tried. So now I am like, is it discernment or the feelings of true Empath feelings or anxiety? Whew, on a rollercoaster now and it doesn’t feel great. My mind is all over the place. lol. funny but not funny. some of you will get that. Hopefully, none of you will think I am nuts.
I am trying so hard as I keep saying to stay away from this but how can you> I mean it is everywhere. Monuments destroyed, history being erased from even those who are asking not to erase it. Everything is offensive. This is stupid. Riots, mayhem, people killing people. where does it stop? I guess when we take a stand. Whether that stand is different from what others believe, there is no reason we cannot work it out to have all of us agree that as Americans we need to come together and fix this. I am in shock over the pictures and videos of people being spit on, beaten, killed. I am gentle at heart but I am a great defender of what I believe in and I am more than willing to agree to disagree but solve through Unity. Ok. rant for the moment. Might be more. lol.