I have been waiting for the Covid results that came back negative and that was great! But in the days waiting, I pushed my Yoga, meditation, and Prayer as much as I could! I thought I would fall out but I had to do it to stay sane. I did it over and over and over everyday but I am glad. It helped even if my Anxiety kept screaming “You are going to have it!” my mind was at least calmed from a Nervous break down by doing all of these things. I am so glad now that I did because it kept me on at least a base level of sanity. lol
I am used to being alone for long periods of no company or etc. But this quarantine of going no where and seeing no one except my husband it can drive you nuts. But I am trying to work on doing more positive things. I have done so much outside it is useless but too hot right now anyway. I have turned to trying my photography and painting again along with exercise and other things. I have started watching movies again. I went almost a year with very little interaction with the telly! Sooooo, if you are locked in, just try and find something that you never had time for before or couldn’t do because you were busy!
Actually they have been around for a while. Similar to mad cow disease but now they are saying humans can contract it from their urine, etc. etc. and of course by eating them. But it cautions mainly hunters and say’s to watch for the signs of a Zombie type walk and stuff like that. So, I am waiting anxiously for the Dinosaur eggs. I think maybe I will select a one of those tiny ones that group together but I will just have one. Kind of like a baby lizard. lol. Or maybe next we will have a new version of dragonflies. I posted a pic here of the alleged toxic blue lone Dragonfly of the Amazon. lol. No, just a joke pic I made. I have to do something. so I am creating my own monsters. lol. I think I might need some interaction with another human or two. Have a great day/night fellow bloggers!
I just wrote on how the Empath feelings are a low right now and BOOM anxiety hits! Soooo, needless to say, that kicked in and then I starting getting vibes from text and calls and that sent it into overdrive. Of course the anxiety didn’t help because it pushed into high gear all of the stuff that comes with it. And dreams last night about my daughter so I called my other daughter and she is over the top on everything she has going on so we were not able to help each other much. but we tried. So now I am like, is it discernment or the feelings of true Empath feelings or anxiety? Whew, on a rollercoaster now and it doesn’t feel great. My mind is all over the place. lol. funny but not funny. some of you will get that. Hopefully, none of you will think I am nuts.
I am trying so hard as I keep saying to stay away from this but how can you> I mean it is everywhere. Monuments destroyed, history being erased from even those who are asking not to erase it. Everything is offensive. This is stupid. Riots, mayhem, people killing people. where does it stop? I guess when we take a stand. Whether that stand is different from what others believe, there is no reason we cannot work it out to have all of us agree that as Americans we need to come together and fix this. I am in shock over the pictures and videos of people being spit on, beaten, killed. I am gentle at heart but I am a great defender of what I believe in and I am more than willing to agree to disagree but solve through Unity. Ok. rant for the moment. Might be more. lol.
Well I am not sure if it is all of the praying, yoga, tai-chi, meditation or lack of people. Maybe all of the above but my empath ability is on low gear. I think probably not being around people because the others are for my Anxiety and Panic. But, either way, I am like on a no feel zone with others in ways to gauge what they are feeling. However, it sure has helped me in the anxiety department. Oh well, just thought I would share that!
I have challenged myself during this time to try and make my mind build strength again as I battled the Anxiety and more. I fight and fought it. And to my delight, it is a slow walk but I am becoming stronger. mentally and Physically and more. Yes, I am still battling Anxiety but I know it could have been much worse. Each day I find myself just a spoon full stronger but every little spoonful adds up. I walk now more, I am eating better, I am challenging my mind. I do Yoga, Yardwork, Devotional time, prayer, meditation and ANYTHING to keep my mind busy and I even play Brain games. NO, I do not do all of it everyday but I do some of it everyday. I accepted the challenge Thank god, so far, I am winning. Thanks to all of you who support me and keep me hanging in there and encourage me. You are a huge part of this battle! have a great day/night fellow bloggers/writers. Team US!
I will appreciate the ability to go where I want
I will be happy to go see family and not complain about how long it takes.
I will be thankful for the time it gave me to write on here and share life with all of you. Of course, I still intend to but it gave me extra time in the day to do it.
I will be thankful for the good things that have come from it…
Fresher air, less cell phone time when we can or do get together, playing board games, just going to restaurants to eat and just things I took for granted.
I will appreciate the wonder of Nature outside of my door.
Taking photos wherever I want again.
I appreciate so much that I had forgotten to see and take the time to notice.
I call them the great pretenders because they are so nice to me but I know that when I turn my back, most of them are the first jab a knife in there while they run around telling their “peeps” everything mistake I could possibly make and if there isn’t one, trust me, they can find SOMETHING. It is hard when the people you care about do not care back. For whatever reason, I get chosen as the scapegoat for all of the things that are wrong. So, I am learning to let it go (very hard) and just pretend I do not know and I just stay and play nice. Honesty is not allowed. Only if they need me for something am I wonderful again. But I am also learning to love myself and if that is how they choose to be then at least they do not suck my emotional heart out anymore. Sometimes, just turning around and emotionally walking away is more healing than trying to gain someone’s love.
The picture journeys that speak to my soul, the blogs about life that and love and kids and everything that help me find joy, the blogs about sorrow that help me to know I do not cry alone. The blogs about so many things. Blogs to help us in our writing, blogs about pets, love of Nature, blogs on Yoga, anxiety and empaths. I could go on and on but THANK YOU to each of you who keep me and I know so many other bloggers afloat on our journey of life! You are ALL so very awesome… Off to read more now! Hugs!