The New Normal… Blessings Amid the Chaos….

So much has changed in this new “normal”. Locked in, facetime for family and friends, mask, anxiety, Fear, sickness, tears, a longing to be with those you love, a desire to be in that church you always assumed would be open. The Yoga classes, the gym and the work place where it was always such a chore. the schools where our children met, learned and played. This new “normal” has sucked in so many ways. But there have been blessings too. Learning to appreciate what we took for granted. The freedom to see who we wanted when we wanted, the ones who loved being alone then found that having the opportunity to get out taken away made some of us want to reach out. It has made me have such an appreciation for things I just never worried about. I never knew wearing a mask could be so weird but I know how those with cancer must have felt or feel. The blessings have been seeing just how much we will now absorb and breathe in the ability to be able to be free again. So, along with the chaos cam the blessing of learning again how precious life can be.

New strains of Covid now? …… Just wow……..

I know Covid-19 is real. Too many members of my family have gotten it. Or they say it is Covid-19. Then you see the news and do not know whom to believe because almost all, if not all of them lie. But they say before was not actually Covid-19 causes many things but Doctors were getting paid to say. Whatever, something came here. NOW, we have new variant strains coming in so once again, mask, social distance, no crowds (sucks for those of us with big families.) But I have been isolating and being very careful since last May while I waiting the arrival of my daughters baby and had to quarantine if I wanted to see her. So rarely since have I gone anywhere other than occasional trips to family, twice to a Restaurant and shopping comes here. Or husband gets it for us. I wish this would go away so we could get out and enjoy life outside the home again.

COVID, you suck…. Been off for a bit…

WOW! I have had a LOT of family hit with Covid the last month or so and now another one this week. This is a horrible thing for them and it is scary. Some do great and whip through while others are having a harder time. So I have been focusing on that and I am just too mentally drained to write. This is such a hard situation. You go loco if you try to be cautious and stay away from people and places but then I have seen first hand where going out or just even using every pre-caution you can they still got it. I am ready for this bad boy to hang up its guns and go away!

I am re-naming Lucifer the dog…. because I cannot remember what I re-named him before…….lol.

Most of you know Lucifer by now. He is the neighbors Chihuahua who has always been so mean and so scary that he can scare a dog over a 100 pounds into running from him with those sharp little teeth. If not, here is a quick summary. Lucifer, whom I will now just call “Salty Dog”, would attack and terrorize our neighborhood. People, animals, rocks, leaves and the list goes on every time he would jerk free from his masters hand ( a sweet but timid lady) and he would embark on his rampage, leash trailing behind him. He thought everything was deadly and needed him to kill it. including humans who would just be standing there. He would come after your ankles. we. all. ran. lol

But in 2020, Lucifer changed over the year. Yes, he still chases leaves, rocks, other animals and such but now he has stopped coming after me. He will just, stare, challenge my mind and then go on. We kind of came to a silent agreement this past year. we need more friends than enemies. lol. So, he is tempted at times but I guess he doesn’t smell fear on me anymore. who knows? Either way, from now on, I will call him Salty Dog. Unless he comes after me again. lol

Tryin to re-train things in my brain to Positive vs. Negative….

This has been a year if I ever need to switch from negative to positive, this has been it. I realized how much negative was in my mind when battle after after mental battle erupted. Not to say i am totally negative because I have funny days as well but I have had to let go of a lot of it. Toxic thoughts, people, environment and more. But there, as in life, have been really good things and some really bad things that have happened this year. Maybe Covid made the bad things seem worse, I don’t know. So That is what I am trying to do. On the plus side, I have Lucifer (the Chihuahua guard dog to ensure a good chuckle when I am having really bad moments. I mean, as long as I can laugh safely away from him. Have a great day/evening everyone.

It feels like this year has been a mind bender on a Roller Coaster……..

WOW! This has been one odd and strange, mind bending year. That I know. I do not think I have ever remembered a year like this one. We have had a horror movie year. Like I wonder how many scary movies can be written from this year? I cannot think of many Romance but I guess you could pack in a few of those and some Action movies. I know for me, so far, it has been like crazy! Sad, happy, good times, bad and most of those or all of them you get in any year but this one? yeah. My mind has been on a roller coaster on this one! Seriously! I even have become friends with neighbors I never imagined would ever speak. wow! Well have a great day/night fellow bloggers!

The Holidays are here…. 2020 has been so tough that I put up Christmas decor inside… Need some cheer..

I usually have as most of us do, Thanksgiving with family and then I usually have our Annual Christmas party at my home where most of the family tried to gather together. However, due to everyone dealing with sickness, Covid, etc. or just the scare of Covid, I had to cancel my party this year. However, I decided to put up some Christmas anyway and early. Yes, I know. Only November but I love glitter, it helps my anxiety right now and so it makes me smile. So I posted a couple of my Holiday pics. If you hate it when people do that and I usually wait at least until after Thanksgiving (lol) then you may not want to peek. haahaha. Good day/evening fellow bloggers!

Watch out for that Covid…. Not sure what I had but I hope it is gone….

I started getting sick very fast. Then I was really sick. all with in two days is how it started. I took a rapid test for Covid-19 and it was negative. I started having trouble breathing and then coughing, runny nose, headache and sneezing. I went to the Doctor and they said, Oh, Acute Bronchitis. Well, I have had that before and I have to say that this was worse than any case I have EVER had. I think they may have given a false negative which is strange considering they say the Covid is on the rise again. However, several people I know got tested. All negative. some the Rapid testing, some the 3 to 5 day. Either way, whatever this was, it knocked me down hard. I seem to be doing better now but be careful out there. I would not wish whatever this was, on ANYONE!

I hope to be able to get back to blogging…. This was tough… 2020 you suck…. Some great blessing too but , yeah….

I am trying to stay up and about and I cannot quite clear my head yet but I am trying. I miss blogging and whatever this was, it knocked me down! I mean, I have not ever had something like this since I had a blocked intestine Physical wise. Mentally, when my daughter was killed. It has been something else. I just wanted to check in and say hi to my fellow bloggers!

I took a break from al of the election junk… or so I thought…

I only planned on taking a few days away from any social but I ended up really really sick. I got Covid tested with rapid test. I went to doc next test day when it was negative. they said Acute Bronchitis. I have had that before. This, whatever this is was way different and I am still battling it but it is not just Bronchitis. Either way, I am here, grateful to be up after so many days in bed. Still sick but up. That is a start.