Life and Me……………

An introvert, mom, writer, empath, yoga freak, prayer lover, artist, writer, animal activist.

Poet, photographer, a lover of nature, traveling by car to see everything I can, anxiety fighter.

A person who loves too deep, thinks too much, writes because I love it, feels others pains and emotions, struggles with Yoga but I have a love/hate relationship.

A person who believes Life can be good because we have it.

 

Hi Everybody!…. Tales for the day….

Wow! Okay. For those who have followed my Parakeets, I homed them to a new home and the follow ups she is sending me are great. They are very happy. I just couldn’t get to them enough to spend quality time because I have a zoo of dumped off animals that I cannot get help with, my own dogs, and work! Yikes! But hey, I am blessed that it gets my mind off of Anxiety for a bit. I am duking it out with Lucifer the dog (just kidding) I actually laugh at him, unless he is off the leash and chasing me. he is the Houdini of leash escapes. I HAVE been doing Yoga, meditation, and Prayer. Lots of those. And I still fight anxiety but this has been a somewhat better week off and on. The only hard part is the Empath road has been high.  I sure hope all of you have been having a great week!

My standby friend…. Yoga…

I have been using my friend Yoga quite a bit the last couple of weeks. I have worked over what I usually do in my routines. I have sweated, cried, relaxed. Then of course my Prayer and meditation as well. But Yoga is what I go to when I need some extra peace and calming. I pray, meditate and then I use all of the gifts given us to help to get through and enjoy the blessings I have. I do feel blessed and I feel cursed by this panic and anxiety. I know I am controlling it very well at times and then other times I just get lost in it. But I got through with a little help from my friend and my prayers. Have a great day/night to you all wherever you are!

What Quarantine has done to me Mentally… Safe but needed Recovering time…Just MY experience….

My case was more extreme than others but I want to share what I have experienced and what it did mentally. First, I went into quarantine because a new baby was coming and for us to see her, we had to be in quarantine. Each time 2 weeks. I have immunity issues so of course I was quarantining from others. Then my husband flew to California and so when he came back we had to quarantine for two weeks and then get tested. So, in all I had been in quarantine since late April, only going out when my dad died and to see my mom twice.

Recently, I have been slowly transitioning to getting out again. It has been a mind blower. During my time at home, I did Yoga,. meditation, Prayer, Tai Chi and writing as well as Art and Photography here at home. But, over time, I was getting writer’s block as I shared on here. I lost any desire for Art and I quit doing Photography. I just went in the same circle everyday. While I knew people who were getting it, I knew for me it was best to quarantine. MY CHOICE.

But, the transition back into Society has made me feel like a dog who wants to get back to its cage (not an actual cage). I would go out and I was so nervous, I just wanted to get back home. I was depressed if away from home. SO, While I am glad I was and I still AM being cautious, I was not prepared for this.

Yoga…..I love you…. But my body hates you until I am through…

I love Yoga but I have to say my mind fights it because my body hates it until I am through. I have to do  my cool down relaxation so my body does not scream at me. then, of course, it is fine and I feel better. But during the beautiful yet torture of it, I am often ready to give up just during the warm up. I mean this is not for Pansies. lol. My husband used to laugh until I had him do it. He doesn’t laugh anymore. hahahahaha. Namaste.

Fear grips my heart…Anxiety sets in even more…. I do Yoga and my Prayer and then I get a bit calmer because…………………

Some days I just find myself in a whirlwind of emotions. I am fighting the every ready Anxiety that tried to bring me down. I feel that fear that comes with asking myself if I am okay or is it just anxiety? I grip onto my mind and tell it to stop. Just stop. Then I pray. I do my Yoga. I put Lavender oil I make behind my ears and on my wrist. Then I start to get calmer and finally I can breathe okay instead of running to my room to get away from everything. I know why I have the anxiety and fear and I know I can beat it but for now I am happy each time I just manage to win the war and not let the fear and anxiety overtake me.

I have pushed my Yoga, Prayer and meditation to the Max! ….. Sore but feels good….No pain, no Gain I guess…

I have been waiting for the Covid results that came back negative and that was great! But in the days waiting, I pushed my Yoga, meditation, and Prayer as much as I could! I thought I would fall out but I had to do it to stay sane. I did it over and over and over everyday but I am glad. It helped even if my Anxiety kept screaming “You are going to have it!” my mind was at least calmed from a Nervous break down by doing all of these things. I am so glad now that I did because it kept me on at least a base level of sanity. lol

Yoga….Yoga…. Goga….Goga…. Bring this Anxiety level down…..

I actually went to the Yoga room and did some Yoga to clear my mind a bit, relieve some anxiety and just to do SOMETHING to bring tranquility. I did some prayers, some meditation and I even did Tai Chi. You would think my body would be rock tight but no. I am not. Why? because once I am done hunger sets in and I am bored so I eat. Junk. Then I try to make up for it with fruit and veggies. But all in all at least I do have something to help. Or at least I think I do. My writing has been so scrambled here lately I think I need a trip to the Beach. Oh wait. they are closing most of them again. Do saltwater baths act like the Ocean? just kidding. lol

Yoga Life………………………….

This is like a guide for me on how to stay healthy, in shape, calm (not always 100% because of anxiety but it sure helps) and how to use it for the things in life that try and take me over the top. There are so many styles and methods and yes, I still struggle because some are just really hard to do. But I do love it and I love being able to lose myself in it. The music playing is calm and sometimes I use the sounds of nature when I am in the mode for that. Yoga. It is a way of life and it does work!

My Empath/ Discernment level has been quiet… Of course I am not really around people……

Well I am not sure if it is all of the praying, yoga, tai-chi, meditation or lack of people. Maybe all of the above but my empath ability is on low gear. I think probably not being around people because the others are for my Anxiety and Panic. But, either way, I am like on a no feel zone with others in ways to gauge what they are feeling. However, it sure has helped me in the anxiety department. Oh well, just thought I would share that!