So much has changed in this new “normal”. Locked in, facetime for family and friends, mask, anxiety, Fear, sickness, tears, a longing to be with those you love, a desire to be in that church you always assumed would be open. The Yoga classes, the gym and the work place where it was always such a chore. the schools where our children met, learned and played. This new “normal” has sucked in so many ways. But there have been blessings too. Learning to appreciate what we took for granted. The freedom to see who we wanted when we wanted, the ones who loved being alone then found that having the opportunity to get out taken away made some of us want to reach out. It has made me have such an appreciation for things I just never worried about. I never knew wearing a mask could be so weird but I know how those with cancer must have felt or feel. The blessings have been seeing just how much we will now absorb and breathe in the ability to be able to be free again. So, along with the chaos cam the blessing of learning again how precious life can be.
I am trying to replace negative thoughts and mindset with a positive one. I just an extreme over thinker and I am also an Empath/ Discerner so that can be hard but I am learning slowly to replace those negatives with a positive. So, when I worry about a person or a thing and if, for example, they are mad or upset or if I have done something, I replace it with No, there is nothing I have done and if I have, I apologize but like I used to. I do not worry now for days and every minute. I just replace with the thought that I did what i could so there. When I over worry about what could happen, I stay in the moment and realize I am fine for now. It is a very long process but at least I am giving it my best shot. i am also doing positive imaging. Try to place positive images in my mind. So, that is my place for now!
IMGOSH! I am so over the top right now. lol. Like I have a good bit of time to observe and the Empath in me is going nuts. My senses are more alert than ever and I am for sure able to discern really well right now. BUT, on the UP side I have Salty dog (formerly Lucifer) from across the street to keep me entertained, I play a lot of brain games to keep my mind occupied, I write and I do Yoga even when it makes me cry. Yes. Yoga can make me cry because it is the BEST anxiety/ stress reliever BUT it is also hard. But then when I do rarely get out and see others I know my Empath wire starts up. Then, I get more anxious with all the stuff rolling in my mind so back home to Yoga and Meditation! Goodness, I am a multi-freakout. hahahahahaha.
I know. I just wrote about it. But I get writer’s block from so much time inside and I think of things I want to write about and then come here and bam. Blank. I cannot get the words. I am a bit agitated as well. plus all the Political things I try to avoid if I can so there is that. So I am back to using the Yoga to help me stay as calm as I can, the Meditation to help me to try and relax so I can write and lots of Prayer just to get me through. On top of that, my Empath/ Discernment is at an all time high. THAT does not help but I have tons of time to think and observe things socially online soooo… lol… Yes, I am just a tons of laughs! lol.
I want to get back to more cheerful post but this is a tough time of year for me and 2020 sure has not helped. However, with a lot of stress and that time of year I cry over my daughter ( natural when you lose a child) and she loved the Holidays and then left us in February, three days after Valentines. Soooo, to try and bring some happy that is locked inside of me. So I am doing my exercises and prayer and doing the things needed to help me appreciate my blessings. I am blessed to have this place to come to.
I needed to get back to a clearer thinking and mindset so along with my daily Prayer and Meditation time, I started Yoga again and I also did Tai Chi today which I have missed doing very much! I love the relaxation of Tai Chi in helping me to relax my everything. It relaxes me in a different way. I use Yoga more for exercise and yes, some relaxing. I use Tai Chi for a different form and level of relaxing as well as yes, exercise. Confused yet? I hope not. They all just seem to counter balance each other.
I see so many photos of yoga outside and I know many do it outside but I do it in my home. I am back at it now and I needed it. I still have that love/hate relationship with downward dog. Maybe I always will but it was so good et back to it. I hope all of you are well and doing great as we journey along. If you need a way to build strength and yet also to relax, try some yoga!
Just try one. It is okay. They help lift you up. they are legal. Not bad at all. That is what started my journey to battle Nicotine. I would do it off and on because many months between everything, I was very Physically active. Rapelling, hiking, climbing, etc. But then I just kept doing it one day. I have never been a normal type smoker. I hate the smell. never do it indoors or in a car or anything like that but now I am on the road again, to stopping. It is the Psychological battle right now, beat the Physical but it can be tough. So, trying hard, lot’s of praying and more exercise than usual. Here I go. lol.
I have learned…
To love more openly. To give more freely. To not let my Empath wires go crazy. That anxiety can be handled sometimes even when it is extreme. That is not easy but it can happen. To find some of my past interest and work on them. To appreciate. To hope. To try and reach out where I used to cling to aloneness. To laugh more, to fight harder. That I love my Country. To work harder on Yoga and prayer and meditation. To live.
I quit writing about Yoga but yes, I do practice Yoga. In my home. I may not be Yoga instructor material but I do love it. it does calm me and I just do not choose to do it outside or at the Park. As many know, I have stated Yoga and I have a love/hate relationship. I love the benefits but some of the exercises are hard and though I do most, I never seem to conquer some of the harder ones but I do try. So if you find it hard at first, just keep on keeping on. Have a great day/night fellow bloggers!