We have such a love/hate relationship even still. It is so great for relaxing the mind and hard on the body but only during the time doing it and then your body feels great. So, I still do it even though I feel like it is trying to tear my very muscles apart sometimes. Then, after a few hours I feel the tension leaving and I know it is because I need to do it daily and be reliant on doing it daily. So, my friend Yoga, I actually do love you but I may never love downward dog. lol
I went outside to just take a breather and I saw butterflies dancing around my flowers. I had to smile at their beauty and how they just seem happy to me. Just fluttering around and ignoring everything around them. The sound of men building a home across the street. The little dog Lucifer who is barking his fierce words or maybe joy at the World around him. Cats trying to catch them but they fly out of reach. Regardless, they just seem to be creatures that let nothing sway them from their mission. I think I should learn from these awe inspiring creatures.
When I lost my children, one at two days, my son Ryan, and my daughter, Nikki in a wreck with three of her friends, I did not realize how much grief can change on a daily basis. It takes a while to get over the shock that numbs you from going insane but it does not stop the pain or tears. I never realized the ups and down and like a flowing river, you have calm places, turbulent areas and dangerous pulls. Grief has been like that to me. I have times I am calm and smile at the memories. Days when I fall apart and just cry. I also have days when anger overcomes it all and I find myself fighting the pain. As time goes on I find more days of calm water but the under current is always there. Waiting.
Well, my friend Yoga and I have not seen each other in a bit. Between chaos, life and so much going on I have to admit I have not been on the mat. I have exercised but I have just not been wanting to visit my trusted mat of Peace and tranquility. my exercise that can make me feel so good but can be so hard. But today I rolled it out and here we were. Just the Yoga videos and me. I have to say I feel great but I also have to admit I am sore. Yoga is a great way to go from weak to strngth. Loving it! have a great day/evening everybody! 🙂
I had to actually add some light just so you could see the picture. it really was that foggy! 🙂
In all that is going on in this crazy life, I just want to spread some love and and share some love from the heart. I am going to reach out if I can to those who seem sad, or worn down. I want to show those who feel unloved that somebody loves them. One person can change that life. I am going to make that my focus today! Have a great day/evening wherever you are!
Memories of love……
I love fairies as most people know. i love fantasy and I love using design to combine the two. So today is a break from the usual to share some of how I mix reality and fantasy and also some beautiful memories together. I made some of my daughter and her niece who never got to meet . I also brought a bit of love into her sisters photos to keep the sisterly bond. Have a great day/ evening wherever you are and I hope you enjoy.
I was told during my energy break that someone didn’t understand anxiety, didn’t care and that people should just learn to deal with it. that there was no compassion for them. (I have anxiety) At first I almost went into a spiral and then I realized what differs me from me and them because another said I was too much because I always assume the worst (that was a call where I asked if they were okay because I hadn’t heard from them.) I realized what makes me different is i have compassion. I try to see what they may be going through but that because they are so angry or Narcissistic, they are still humans. Something put us where we are. So I can stand aside and have compassion but also stand strong when being accused of whatever it may be. My Anxiety never stopped me from keeping compassion in my heart and that part of me I love. Have a great day/evening wherever you are.
I had to step back and take and take a break. Sometimes the World tries to beat us down and make us feel we are not enough but that is not true. I was there when I took a mental pause and it was good. we ARE all good enough. We are ALL our own unique person. It doesn’t have to be a life where you follow a pattern or a road other s follow. It is great for them but it may not be your travel. So, as we along our journey, I want to know that I am just great being me. 🙂