The life we live as Empaths/ Discerners…. Joy and loneliness…

Sometimes I cry because this life can be so lonely and then others I am overwhelmed with joy at those times when I can be happy. It is so hard not to have friends. It is so hard to know you are not accepted like other people because you are just so blunt and so different. But then joy comes with the few who love you. Usually the younger ones or the ones who know your pain. I am in one of those modes today. Just crying because I feel so damn alone. But I come here at those times where I am accepted just as I am. I come here on the joy days to share some of the things I find funny. I come here just to feel accepted by others who have never even physically given me a hug. Sorry. Just a down day. lol. But I have the good days too and for that I am blessed.

Why so I have trouble sleeping every full moon?…………………..

I have no idea why but EVERY full moon and the night before I just cannot get to sleep. I do not even know if this is normal but I know it is agitating! I just wonder if anyone else has this issue? Not a long post but I am just curious because it is so weird!

The Tiny Hunter….. Kittens are such a joy!….

I watch this little one as she stalks and pounces on bugs, or at least at them. It is so funny because she thinks I cannot see her. She is a little hunter. Then when I feel a bit down, I will go out in the evenings and just watch her. She pounces around, runs at full speed after something and then just stops. She enters into a little fenced area I have, looking around to see if anything sees her and then goes in to stalk the cricket that I guess she heard. The Cricket got away. Well everything she stalks gets away. Kittens are such a joy and bring a smile to me in days that can be depressing. I look forward to watching my tiny little Hunter.

Yoga….Yoga…. Goga….Goga…. Bring this Anxiety level down…..

I actually went to the Yoga room and did some Yoga to clear my mind a bit, relieve some anxiety and just to do SOMETHING to bring tranquility. I did some prayers, some meditation and I even did Tai Chi. You would think my body would be rock tight but no. I am not. Why? because once I am done hunger sets in and I am bored so I eat. Junk. Then I try to make up for it with fruit and veggies. But all in all at least I do have something to help. Or at least I think I do. My writing has been so scrambled here lately I think I need a trip to the Beach. Oh wait. they are closing most of them again. Do saltwater baths act like the Ocean? just kidding. lol

Waiting for Covid -19 results…. Then I read about the swine flu that may have possible Pandemic outcome..From china…

Omgosh! I am waiting for the results from my test after my beloved flew to California and so I have to be tested to see my daughter’s baby. I am scrolling along and yep. I see it. NOW, there is a new strain of swine flu in China that could have pandemic proportions. Oh that is nice. I mean, this is getting beyond crazy. I am going to have to go out into the sweltering heat just so I can clear my mind (if the Sahara dust has cleared up enough) and try to find something funny to get my mind off of this. Even Lucifer, the dog, has not been out in days. I hope he is okay. Maybe I could throw a rock at the neighbors door (just kidding) and get her to bring him for a walk. Or maybe I should just suck it up and try to focus on something else. Quarantine is not good for me obviously. lol.

Well the Zombie deer have arrived in many of our States….lol.. I have heard of a new species of Dragonfly. lol……..

Actually they have been around for a while. Similar to mad cow disease but now they are saying humans can contract it from their urine, etc. etc. and of course by eating them. But it cautions mainly hunters and say’s to watch for the signs of a Zombie type walk and stuff like that. So, I am waiting anxiously for the Dinosaur eggs. I think maybe I will select a one of those tiny ones that group together but I will just have one. Kind of like a baby lizard. lol. Or maybe next we will have a new version of dragonflies. I posted a pic here of the alleged toxic blue lone Dragonfly of the Amazon. lol. No, just a joke pic I made. I have to do something. so I am creating my own monsters. lol. I think I might need some interaction with another human or two. Have a great day/night fellow bloggers!

And now…. the Mummy Sandstorm…. 2020..

Lol. When I first read about this I honestly thought it was a joke. Nope. Just another day in 2020. And here it is! Wow. I am expecting any day for baby dinosaurs to start hatching in the Forest. hahaahaha. Or maybe Vampires to finally come out of hiding and let us know it is “their” time to shine. Well, feed. Whatever. I am starting to not be shocked by much at this point. I mean, it just keeps coming. So, I figured I might get a laugh from some of it. Oh wow. just so crazy. So I have dreamed up some things. Baby alien creature snails that attack. Turtle that might be able to convert their shells into ammo holders to shoot at us. Maybe throw in a few Zombies coming by to sell Girl scout cookies. I mean this has been one crazy year so far. Oh and above is proof Mermaids do exist. hahahah. Have a great day/night fellow bloggers wherever you are!

Lift our hands in Love…. We need each other…We need to be united by love…..

Not by color. Not by economics. Not by status. Not by anything. we need to join hands across this Nation and we need to stand tall and comfort, talk, argue, discuss, act like a family that disputes each other and then forgives because the love runs deep. Our love for Our great Nation has made us ONE family. Whether we agree or not on everything, we don’t have to. But hatred will only create more hatred. Someone once told me most anger comes from pain. Well, let us heal the pain but not with violence and hatred but with love and respect. Because the greatest thing you can ever give is love.

Anxiety & Empath/ Discernment is so crazy!………………………………

I just wrote on how the Empath feelings are a low right now and BOOM anxiety hits! Soooo, needless to say, that kicked in and then I starting getting vibes from text and calls and that sent it into overdrive. Of course the anxiety didn’t help because it pushed into high gear all of the stuff that comes with it. And dreams last night about my daughter so I called my other daughter and she is over the top on everything she has going on so we were not able to help each other much. but we tried. So now I am like, is it discernment or the feelings of true Empath feelings or anxiety? Whew, on a rollercoaster now and it doesn’t feel great. My mind is all over the place. lol. funny but not funny. some of you will get that. Hopefully, none of you will think I am nuts.

I am just sad at the America we have right now……….

Black vs. white. white vs. white. people vs. cops. We are all being divided. I cannot grasp this. There are injustices in all areas of life. I hate the killing of ANY innocent person, whether it be a black, white, any of heritage, officer, bystander, or babies. I am appalled at how so many innocent people have been during riots and looting. Have a riot if you want to vent but do it by yelling if you need to get it out. But to desecrate statues, graves of soldiers who fought for ALL of us, steal because it what? accomplishes nothing except you stole what belongs to someone else. No solution there. What we need is UNITY UNITY UNITY as ALL people as one. We can change things but how is killing an innocent person or a good cop filling up the need for change? I just do not understand why we cannot form a bond of love for our fellow man and come together to make change. For ALL of us. I hope we can before our lives all fall apart.