What is my Happy Place? A day when I beat panic…..

Sop FAR, to day I am beating the panic. So far. That will have to do for now. But hey, it is almost three in my area of the woods so that is a plus! I even had a break down moment thinking of my angels who left me. My son, My daughter and my nephew. 2 days, Ryan, 23 Nikki and Kyle 13. But I am trying and I exercising and I listen to music and I and I work and I just do it. I usually would have had anxiety by this point. But I held it off! Any progress beats no progress! Thanks for being here my fellow bloggers & friends!

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This thing with anxiety med cut down will be slow. Obviously. :)

I am trying it but I can tell this will be slow going but I figure if I even cut back just a bit it is better than nothing. My experience so far today is letting me know that I have to take this in very slow baby steps but hey! A baby starts by crawling so if I can even manage this of cutting back just a little that is a huge accomplishment to me! So my sweet blogger friends I am trying and I hope it brings encouragement for you too that we can do this in steps or even cut down just a bit!

Trying to wean off the anxiety meds just a small bit…..

Okay fellow friends and bloggers. As I go along, I am trying to wean off just a tiny bit on my anxiety meds. I am not on a huge dose and I have kept them the same for almost five years. But I am trying to use my other methods (prayer, meditation, yoga, etc.)to go along with it. Last night went okay even during a stress full situation.
So I will try cutting that dose again this evening. I know it will be a journey that may not be easy but I want to get me back. I know this is a struggle and I know I have to be logical about it but I try anything I can to try and work out this situation. I also know my brain is all in how I train it. But life is filled with anxiety so I also know to tread this carefully! So, just trying. 🙂

there is sun behind the rain…

I do battle anxiety but I know there is a ray of light behind this dark cloud of junk that tries to over power me. I overthink, I over everything. But I see the light that shines through and that keeps me trying. I see the ray of hope and it gives me hope that I can over come this. I see those who struggle with me and how we lift each other up when things seem dim. So, Behind every cloud there IS a ray of light.

Panic and Positive thoughts….

So, I define my panic attacks and my anxiety on a separate plain. Because panic attacks bother me worse than anxiety if that makes sense. BUT, I have found with both that trying to keep positive thoughts in my head seem to help a lot. Avoiding people who want to criticize me. Trying to find beauty in anything. I also try to be more positive when I can. Sometimes, during anxiety, I can be hateful and not very kind but it is because I am about to scream in my brain that I am a jello square jiggling all over.
So, that is me and my issues today. so far, pretty good on things! I hope all my fellow strugglers are doing good too!

As my heart races……….

OUCH! I was just writing a short bit ago how I am staying busy to keep anxiety down and I have been doing good and them BAM! I stepped outside and my heart just felt like it was racing! I was really taken off guard because I have been doing so well.
But this is life with panic and anxiety. It can come from nowhere and when you don’t even expect it at all. It has calmed a little since I have been steadily writing but it has not completely quit racing. I guess I just have to accept it as a reality and face it head on but man can it be hard to do. But I am trying and I am doing all I can to adjust and try to keep it out of my mind. It is times like these when it comes out of no where that bother me the most.

Fairies & Mermaids &drawing,,, Oh my!

Still having fun drawing and painting and writing and yes, making fairies & mermaids. I am trying to stay focused as I try and stem the flow of anxiety issues. I have also YES started back with yoga and Tai-Chi. So, I am trying to be productive as I go along. I just want to share with fellow bloggers who share their journey with me!