As my heart races……….

OUCH! I was just writing a short bit ago how I am staying busy to keep anxiety down and I have been doing good and them BAM! I stepped outside and my heart just felt like it was racing! I was really taken off guard because I have been doing so well.
But this is life with panic and anxiety. It can come from nowhere and when you don’t even expect it at all. It has calmed a little since I have been steadily writing but it has not completely quit racing. I guess I just have to accept it as a reality and face it head on but man can it be hard to do. But I am trying and I am doing all I can to adjust and try to keep it out of my mind. It is times like these when it comes out of no where that bother me the most.

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Fairies & Mermaids &drawing,,, Oh my!

Still having fun drawing and painting and writing and yes, making fairies & mermaids. I am trying to stay focused as I try and stem the flow of anxiety issues. I have also YES started back with yoga and Tai-Chi. So, I am trying to be productive as I go along. I just want to share with fellow bloggers who share their journey with me!

Taking my mental break after a week of chaos….

I got through. I made it. I did it. Such a chaotic week BUT I was blessed and got through it and even had a bit of fun in there with a cute little sprite and family. So, now I am coming off the adrenaline needed (pure not a drug adrenaline) from the fight or flight and a moment of light headedness like I used to get BUT I just hope that is all there is and that it is okay. 🙂
But the good thing is that a few months ago even, I would have been having daily panic or anxiety melt downs. So, hoping this means the road is getting better on my journey. I sure would love that!

Hey! Me again. A calmer anxiety week. Writing and some photo work done.

I sometimes am on pins and needles with anxiety as a part of life. Because I just never know. But, that being said, I was able to work on my book, photo graphics, art and go a few places. I am still living with it but I am also still working on every method I find to get to the bottom of things that can stop it. So far, I have looked at some but they are older and do not work.
But I am glad it was a productive week. I am doing 100 % percent better than my first year from what I have learned but it is still a battle sometimes. I try to stay busy and keep my mind off of it but you know how that goes IF you have it. I have also found triggers to avoid. Stress, arguments, chaos and things that can trigger like getting too depressed about my daughter and son who passed and looking for the joy she brought and he did for the two days he was here. THANK YOU ALL for being here! I love my word press family!

Learning to overcome…..

I am learning to overcome things that make me anxious, learning being the key word. I do great and then it seems that tiny things will cause me to stumble. So, I am just bumbling along on my journey, enjoying some great days and then falling down when I have days that every tiny thing will make me fall down.
But I AM learning and I AM trying so I see that as a fantastic step up from where I was a year ago! I know those who suffer from panic and anxiety like I do will understand how hard this walk is and how strong you have to try and be to overcome it. Maybe I can overcome this but if not, maybe I can learn to live with it a little bit better. Have a great evening!

LOVE & INSANITY. THE FINE LINE….

Such a fine line between the two. What defines the difference?

Insanity is an escape from reality, a journey that some fear to tread.

So is Love.

Love is harsh, yet comforts, gives hope yet causes delusions.

So does Insanity.

Insanity keeps you from accepting certain truths and drives you to the brink.

So does love.

Love demands loyalty. It gives, it takes, it waits fro redemption.

So does insanity.

Most never cross the fine line that divides the two.

For the ones who do, they may never know the difference.

L.S. Rockel