The life we live as Empaths/ Discerners…. Joy and loneliness…

Sometimes I cry because this life can be so lonely and then others I am overwhelmed with joy at those times when I can be happy. It is so hard not to have friends. It is so hard to know you are not accepted like other people because you are just so blunt and so different. But then joy comes with the few who love you. Usually the younger ones or the ones who know your pain. I am in one of those modes today. Just crying because I feel so damn alone. But I come here at those times where I am accepted just as I am. I come here on the joy days to share some of the things I find funny. I come here just to feel accepted by others who have never even physically given me a hug. Sorry. Just a down day. lol. But I have the good days too and for that I am blessed.

Why so I have trouble sleeping every full moon?…………………..

I have no idea why but EVERY full moon and the night before I just cannot get to sleep. I do not even know if this is normal but I know it is agitating! I just wonder if anyone else has this issue? Not a long post but I am just curious because it is so weird!

One of those 4 hour sleep nights…When the brain is in overdrive….

I just could NOT sleep. My brain was in over drive and I could not stop focusing on everything going on and then why we cannot all unite. Then my mind was on what I needed to clean. That was an hour or so. Then I was thinking about who was mad, why they were mad and how to resolve any conflicts so we could all function as a Tribe. (people I know). lol. Then I was worried about whether someone might think about the flowers I planted. They look a bit chaotic. And of course, then I would re-think some more on the dumbest stuff. Needless to say, I scored four hours. Only because I passed out. lol. Have a great day/night fellow bloggers.

Yeah. Life is real over here and being an Empath can be difficult when Anxiety is its best friend…….

I have realized that my anxiety is best buddies with my Empath/ Discernment ability. Sooooo, on top of the anxiety I have a few people who are playing in my mind and yes, it is getting to me. I know, I need to blank them out but right now I cannot and it is an emotional drain on my stressed brain. So I am just trying to use ANY form of ANYTHING to divert my mind from them. This gift is a blessing and in some ways, a hard blessing. So today to all my fellow struggling Empaths, if you are having my kind of day or week, you are NOT alone. OMGOSH. 🙂 Have a great day/evening fellow bloggers!

And Empath/ Discerner Life…………

Anyone who has this ability knows it can be lonely. I scare my own family sometimes much less try to make friendships but it is a gift that I have learned and I am still learning to control in certain ways. Friends are few or none because they know that I am honest in my perspective and it doesn’t take long for them to realize that I do know, feel and sense their inner shell as opposed to their outer so alas, they kind of fall of the friendship wall. But, I also learned there are times that in our lives, I have to shut up and leave it alone. It just is not worth it. So I avoid the Emotional Vampires the best I can but I also try to help as much as I can until I have to recharge. My thoughts on that for the day. Have a great night/day fellow bloggers!

The Great Pretenders….. When people hurt you…

I call them the great pretenders because they are so nice to me but I know that when I turn my back, most of them are the first jab a knife in there while they run around telling their “peeps” everything mistake I could possibly make and if there isn’t one, trust me, they can find SOMETHING. It is hard when the people you care about do not care back. For whatever reason, I get chosen as the scapegoat for all of the things that are wrong. So, I am learning to let it go (very hard) and just pretend I do not know and I just stay and play nice. Honesty is not allowed. Only if they need me for something am I wonderful again. But I am also learning to love myself and if that is how they choose to be then at least they do not suck my emotional heart out anymore. Sometimes, just turning around and emotionally walking away is more healing than trying to gain someone’s love.

Are YOU an Empath/ Discerner?…..

Do you feel things that others do not? Do you feel others joy and pain on a deep level? Can you “read” when people are lying and find out later you are right? Do you have the awareness of tuning in when people are being fake and you can discern a fake person right when or not long after meeting them? Do you often find yourself knowing a person is on the prowl? There are so many different areas of this that it would take 50 more blogs to fill it all in. But just wanted to see how many others are like me. 🙂 Hugs!

Broken…. A Poem….

Too many tears, so many lies, mistrust is never far.
Lost empty fear which divides the heart.
Chains of wisdom and chains of fear bind so many.
As they struggle between trust, love and abandonment.
Trying to conquer the demons within
While looking through rose colored panes.
Sadness, rejection, hopeful, hopeless, blessed, feeling cursed, drained but determined.
Happy yet angry, loved and loving but crazy with despair.
Sun shines, rain falls, bleak hope while searching for that silver lining.
Love, hate, hurt, heal, tortures of the soul.
Broken again, Broken can heal, Broken can be stitched back together
But Broken will always shows the scars of the Journey.

Why people get uncomfortable around Empaths/Discerners….

They get uncomfortable because they know that we know. They know that no matter what they say, we are on target almost 100% of the time. Our feelings, our awareness, our gift enables that. Whether we feel their pain, joy, anger or whatever it is easy for us to pick up on when they are lying or trying to trick us into thinking they are being kind when, in fact, they are doing the Emotional Vampire thing and trying to wear us down by convincing us, or trying to that we are just thinking this all in our heads. Then the other Emotional vampires suck us dry with their negativity, draining us of needed energy to reboot ourselves. Because life as an Empath/ Discerner can be draining on the emotions. I have to try and dodge the ones who want to make me feel like I am crazy, or it is all in my head or I need to “talk” to someone. No, actually, I need none of that. But, you can never convince them because they will always turn the tables on you and make it out like they are great and you are “disturbed”. So, one of the lessons I am learning is to ignore it. Because I know and I am usually right when the truth comes out. Unite us fellow Empaths and Discerners! 🙂

when your Empath/discernment is proven right and you feel relief… Odd but true…

So very many times we are told it is all in our heads, we are causing issues over nothing, we need to do this or that, we are thinking things that are simply not true and it can drive you almost nuts. So, on the few times when someone comes and tells you something you knew all along, it is like a sigh of relief. To know, “Hey, I wasn’t just “thinking ” things in my head or wow, it was true. So then it goes from relief to a bit of anger for being made to feel as though you are bonkers. lol. There are sharks among us but at least we can see them so that is a plus! But, anyway, just wanted to share that it is okay to go with your feelings, your discernment because there is a 98% chance you ARE right. Like honey when it is proven to be true.