2020…… A year to top many others…..Also a year to reflect and learn…

There is no doubt 2020 has thrown us for a loop. But it has also been a time when Our World had to stop for a while and it was a time for me to reflect on so many things. The way that i had to be at home and try to avoid Covid helped me to appreciate the times I never wanted to leave my house. It made me desire to just get out and be able t go. It showed me how to use my ability as an Empath/Discerner to cope with people. It taught me that it takes more than Yoga, prayer, and meditation to deal with anxiety because we need other humans. It has taught me to appreciate things I took for granted. It broke me in some ways but it has built me in others. have a great day/night fellow bloggers.

I found a part of the Yesterday me…. The good part… It came from a lot of Music, me time and a dream…

I AM excited. I do not know how or what brought it on or how I found it again except maybe through the music, time with myself, prayer or a dream i had. Maybe a combination of all. But I remembered her and I feel her inside of me. The part that was confident. The honest yet caring person. The happy person who approached life head on. The person who didn’t live with anxiety but hope and belief that it will work out. I lost all of that person somewhere and maybe I didn’t get but a part of her back but it was a part I needed really bad. i am hopeful this will help the current me to get back the part of me that helped me to love, laugh, be happy and survive. I realized that I AM happy of course but I felt guilt with it. I hope finding that old me brings itself to me now.

2020 has, thus far, been a mind bender. ……..

2020 has been the strangest year I have ever encountered I guess in my life. Viruses, hate, protest, division, monster bugs, new species of every area found, fires, tornadoes, tsunamis, hurricanes, draining of my discernment/empath mind, emotional vampires have been rampant. people losing their minds and the list goes on. Ouch! I have never seen a year like this one before and I have to say it has been so far a Mind Bender.! Wow! But I come here for the calm. The place where I share, care, read other blogs and have my read. So, I think today will be a reading day. I need some of YOUR writings to calm my storm and share in yours. or your anime, laughter, joy and tears. Have a great day/ night!

As Chaos reigns in my mind…. I still the water of Anxiety….

As you know if you read my blogs, I have anxiety. I do several things as you also know to try and calm it. I do Yoga. Not as often as I should. I breathe slow. I pray. I fight this battle that on some days is great and some days it is easily calmed. why? I don’t know. A great Universal question I guess. But I have started to saying in all ways and especially when I pray, there is nothing I can do about until I learn to conquer it. You take it. Then when it comes, I just keep that mindset. Things are what they are and I will not be able to change them by getting anxious so let it go. Soooo, this is experiment number 2, 9999. We will have to see where it goes. Have a great day/night blogging friends!

okay. let’s try this…

Thank you my friend for trying to help me. I am using some of the tools you showed me Raistlin0903. I am trying this now because I am getting so agitated with this. So here goes. Hi everyone. I am just playing around on this to see how these things will work. I am getting some of it! Thank you my sweet friend!

Life and Me……………

An introvert, mom, writer, empath, yoga freak, prayer lover, artist, writer, animal activist.

Poet, photographer, a lover of nature, traveling by car to see everything I can, anxiety fighter.

A person who loves too deep, thinks too much, writes because I love it, feels others pains and emotions, struggles with Yoga but I have a love/hate relationship.

A person who believes Life can be good because we have it.

 

Hanging on to that rope but aren’t we all?……

Seems like everything keeps going haywire right now but we are all having our struggles through these times. I am hanging on to my rope life life crossing these rapid waters. It seems one thing gets clear and another undercurrent comes and tries to pull me under. But on the flip side, I try to stay strong and put on my armor and fight it. And so far, getting through. I still have the ability to laughter at the devil dog across the street. he is back to 100%. I am blessed with a new baby in the family and she keeps everyone in love with her sweet smiles. Life is good just turbulent right now. I hope all of you are staying strong too. If not, get on here with me. We can all hold virtual hands together united. 🙂

I am so mentally drained…

I am just at a drained state of mind. Mentally, I am just at a point where I just cannot even think at times clearly. I have no clue how it came about or what is causing it but it has drained me from writing, art and other things. maybe just the last year has been building up or maybe my mind just needs some serious not over thinking time. Either way, i hope to be more clear headed soon so I can get back to it.

Hi Everybody!…. Tales for the day….

Wow! Okay. For those who have followed my Parakeets, I homed them to a new home and the follow ups she is sending me are great. They are very happy. I just couldn’t get to them enough to spend quality time because I have a zoo of dumped off animals that I cannot get help with, my own dogs, and work! Yikes! But hey, I am blessed that it gets my mind off of Anxiety for a bit. I am duking it out with Lucifer the dog (just kidding) I actually laugh at him, unless he is off the leash and chasing me. he is the Houdini of leash escapes. I HAVE been doing Yoga, meditation, and Prayer. Lots of those. And I still fight anxiety but this has been a somewhat better week off and on. The only hard part is the Empath road has been high.  I sure hope all of you have been having a great week!

It has been quite a day…. On to more Artwork… I need the release..

I am so glad to have the ability to do Art. I am blessed and happy for that. I am happy to be able to have my Prayer, my Yoga and the different ways to diffuse the chaos that can try and overwhelm my mind. So, I take days off to read your blogs. I take days that I solely fix on Yoga and Prayer and Meditation. This week I am focusing on Painting. it calms me. It soothes me and it keeps my mind of another World I enter when I paint. I hope all of you are have some great things to help release as well! 🙂