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I am sipping my morning Java and looking out of my office window as Lucifer strolls down the street. I am safe. Until he learns how to break through windows. If we had a Zombie apocalypse that is one dog I would be running from and I mean fast. Okay, so he is only like a little over 3 lbs. I guess but that Chihuahua is packed full of devil. Sheer demon forces rule that dog. I am surprised his owner doesn’t have more stitches than someone having major surgery but I guess he has chosen to live in peace with her.
If I must admit, he has been somewhat good from my view this a.m. He has only chased (on a long leash) two squirrels, the neighbors cat (currently hiding in the tree right by my window)six leaves that he killed without mercy and the rain that he must have decided is the enemy as well as all of us neighbors as he is now jumping in the air at it while biting and snarling. His owner is as good as the mail service. She will walk in rain, heat, the few times we get snow. Anything for Lucifer. I think I started writing about him to ease my anxiety in hope that I would realize he has only broken off of his leash and come after me like 5 times. Not too bad. But, honestly, I wish we could be friends because I love animals but I must confess. I do not love Lucifer. lol
you don’t understand me
I don’t understand you.
You can never see…
What I’m goin through.
I can always try
to get us above it all
But I feel like we
Are backed against a wall.
Because no matter
how much we are going through,
I don’t understand me.
You don’t understand you. Copyright 2020 L.S. Rockel
Yep. Good old Lucifer, the tiny terror that plagues our neighborhood. They went on vacation so we all had a reprieve but hi there. He is home now. Again patrolling on his leash and waiting to bite our ankles or pull us down maybe like a zombie waiting for the kill. lol. This dog has no words for how mean he is. Yesterday he was chasing after the poor cat he happened to see sitting on a porch while his master/mommy was trying to reign him in. For such a small dog he sure is strong and often breaks off his leash. I wonder how much she spends on those in a year. So, haha, welcome home Lucifer (my name for him, not hers). We all look forward to more terror as you stalk us. With love (and fear and shaking hearts) we are in awe (not) that you made it back safely. In reality we hoped maybe she had found you a new home. hahaha
I often find that I am betrayed over and over. People I trust smile in my face but are talking about me behind my back. They agree with me and then they agree with the person who is doing wrong or using me. As an Empath, I am not stupid but I just and on the other hand I guess it is just common sense. I am loyal to a fault. I guess I should realize that loyalty and backing someone up and being a real person to them just does not exist anymore. People just constantly stab me in the back and then I forgive and forgive and keep staying loyal. It is a trait I value although it comes at the cost of the pain when I am betrayed. Once again. Maybe there are others like me and I know there are here but in my life, not so many in person. It kind of sucks.
How much more can you drain from me? How many times do you need to assault my mind only to satisfy your own needs? I am so over trying to help these kind of people but my life and mind keep doing it. I can never find a resolution for them, I walk on tip toes, I am just fed up with it and yet I still do it. It is time to try and get these emotional vampires to suck the lives out of themselves. lol.
Living with Panic and Anxiety and being an Empath/ Discerner is no easy task let me tell you. So, I do use Yoga as a way of releasing it. Yes, I stay on beginner level at times because my energy has been zapped so I do that and it slowly works me back up by easing the anxiety, emotional vampirism and panic. BUT, it is very hard at times. I also use my Tai-Chi to level me out as well as prayer. I find all forms help me to find a balance in the crazy world of my mind. I am blessed but I am constantly on guard. So, for those who may suffer these trials as well as me, try this as a means of escape. It really does work! Have a great day/night wherever you are1