I hope everyone is having a great past couple of weeks! I have been busy but I am back to say a quick hey!
As you all know, I am a person who battles panic & anxiety. Over these past four years, I have learned ways to combat it and I take a medication that helps keep it somewhat leveled out but I still use alternate methods. Exercise, breathing techniques, ice packs on bad days and yoga. These are just things to help me along. It does get frustrating and the fight is real BUT I am working daily to overcome it and get back to the old me. So, I hope this little tidbit might help my fellow sufferers in some ways we can fight it. Have a great day.
Such a fine line between the two. What defines the difference?
Insanity is an escape from reality, a journey that some fear to tread.
So is Love.
Love is harsh, yet comforts, gives hope yet causes delusions.
So does Insanity.
Insanity keeps you from accepting certain truths and drives you to the brink.
So does love.
Love demands loyalty. It gives, it takes, it waits fro redemption.
So does insanity.
Most never cross the fine line that divides the two.
For the ones who do, they may never know the difference.
I thought of you as I walked on the beach, sand crunching beneath my feet.
I listened to the sounds of crashing waves you loved so much
as they rush onto the sand and soothe our soul.
I waited, Thinking you might just walk up beside me but I knew it was a dream and you were not here.
I went to the place where we put you to rest,
but to me it is just empty and useless.
You are not here, you never have been.
I look at your photo so many times and fantasize that I could change the events that day and tell you not to get in that car but I know better.
Times does NOT heal all wounds but it just soothes the pain over time so we can survive.
Love does not die, it is just here in my heart and I feel it when I think of you, look at your photo and remember the life we had together.
I wish I had known so many things when you were here that I know now
but I learned them when you went away. When I realized you were truly gone.
My greatest joy besides my family, is when I can make people smile. Even at times when I am in the depths off about to have an anxiety moment or whatever, I just love to s=d o something that can make someone else smile. Maybe I feel it helps my heart knowing they are not sad, even if for a bit.
But I love to make other people happy. I love to bring them joy. I fail sometimes when I get treated bad by some of the same people but I am learning to not pity party and rise above it. Because as long as I can make someone smile and brighten their day, then it is worth it. It really is. Have a wonderful day!
I fight many battles in life as we all do and some I lose and those are bad days and some I win and those are great days. But I gather strength from God, friends, here most of all, yes, it is true, some family but few. Most do care to be there. Just judge. But as I go along, I realize life is full of battles and we just win as many as we can.
Life is also filled with beauty. The people who show love and compassion (some I have never even met), beautiful blue skies, funny animals, children’s laughter, flowers and nature in general. So I am trying to focus on the beauty, not the battles and I hope for those , like me, you can as well! Have a wonderful day everyone!
I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry.
And I know you feel the same things too, so,
we’re really not that different- Me and You.