I am good, kind and loving.
I am angry ,frustrated and confused.
I am artistic, an empath and I feel emotions.
I am a lover of Nature and despise the abuse of animals.
I am loyal, devoted and true.
I am short tempered, easy to hurt and quick to strike back.
i am a survivor of abuse and I have learned to survive after loss.
I am me. Many things good and equally bad. But I am human so it is as it is.
Today is a fave day for me. I take a break and go and read as many as I can fit in without speed rushing through them. There are just so many wonderful, deep, real, loving, angry,funny, sad, happy Blogs to choose from. I love our World Press family!
Here in the last few weeks, I will be replying back to people and then, bam! A red sign comes up and say’s comment is trashed! It takes away not only where I am commenting but the person’s comment so I cannot even reply! Is anyone else having this happen?
Turns out I have an Ulcer. And I have to say the pain was so bad that I could not eat much or write or even drink my fave coffee! It is from stress and anxiety. Being an Empath/Discerner at times like these can actually be physically a drain on the body and i have been trying to keep a sunny path away from toxic people but I love and I am loyal so I worry when people are hateful that I am close to or punish me by not speaking. But went to Doc today and got something to hep for today (not pain meds) and start my medicine tomorrow. I hated not being able to write but I hope now I can get back on track. Have a great day/evening. !
Soooo, this week we got rain, temps in the 70’s and almost 80 one day. We had a huge tornado hit our town and followed that with cold temperatures. Then the next day was mix. 30’s in The a.m., 70 during the day along with some rain in the evening and last night we had a freeze warning. Summer of course is always va steady 100 plus degrees daily. So, if you ever go to a home in Georgia and you see what we wear, do not be surprised that we keep all weather clothing out year round. That way we can just pull out three sets of clothing for the day. Lol. I was raised in the North and Weather there was pretty much like Seasons are supposed to be. Lol.
I have laughed. I have cried. I have had good days and bad days. I have forgiven and i have been unforgiving. I have been happy and I have been sad. i have judged and been judged. I have had moments of darkness and moments of light. What I have learned most of all is that many if not all of us go through these phases of our journey. It is okay to have them ad it is okay to not be okay. It is okay if I am outspoken and honest. I have been negative at times and positive other times. Not everyone likes to agree that we may have to disagree. But all in all, that is okay. Because I am me. And I realize me is just who I am meant to be.
Today is the day I get to really take some time and go check out some of the things I may have missed. I try to do it at least twice a week and check out some daily but I get so excited when I have a few hours to do it! I find the. BEST stuff on here! Such talent, raw emotion and beauty as well as pain but all of it has its own beauty! Thank you all! Have a great day/ night!
I write because my heart gets ull and my head seems overwhelmed so I come here and I write it. All. Everything. My life. My thoughts. My fears. My joys. My losses. Y sorrows. My blessings. My pain. Because here I can be me. I can say things and not be judged. I can be me. You can you. You can read my things and I can read yours. I love it here. My private little World shared with others here.
I saw a little firefly tonight
Glowing with your ember light.
You make me smile and feel such joy
Your little light enough to bring happiness.
Thank you little amber glow.
You make me happy, did you know?
The stress had gotten pretty bad so I had to seek intervention because I seriously thought I was losing it. I hope this might help someone else out there because it has helped me a good bit. I am not at 100 but I will take any at this point. Anyway, the Yoga, prayers, meditation and all of that kept the stress in my mind at bay but it was still bad. So, from the Inner Counseling sessions I learned and apply these daily now. 1. Think positive. Truly replace every negative with a positive. 2. STOP letting people get to me. Especially when I KNOW it is intentional. Instead of letting it eat at me, think of it like a movie. I am at war and I am determined to win becauseI want the victory. 3. Truly just let it go, whatever it is if I cannot change it. I just visualized a paper boat filled with all my troubles, loaded down and I placed it in a stream of clear water and watched it flow away. It takes a lot to train your brain but it can be done! 🙂