The Human Touch…..

Sometimes in the midst of all of our moments of hurt, anger, or just life in general, it is nice to feel the touch of another Human. I used to hate to be touched during high stress or hurt and still do not like it when I am angry but I did find that just the touch of another Human is often calming. Whether it is holding their hand, fingers touching, a hug or just a simple caress it soothes me. I think in a World filled with less and less Human connection due to so many ways to reach out electronically, it is almost like a lost art. I am trying to get it back. Have a great day/evening wherever you are!

Morning has Broken…. The Day is Beautiful if you search for Diamonds among the Stones…

I love that song that starts with Morning has broken and I do not even know who sings it but just the opening words are refreshment to my Soul. I went back last week for an unexpected second trip to Florida which is totally out of sync for me. But this time I had Soul reflections. I listened from a Balcony to the Symphony of waves and birds and just reflected. I was in the middle of this and I was praying and just being in the moment. It was then I realized that I had lost so much of me in the challenge to try and save others. But I realized that sometimes you are sucked dry from trying to save someone who will not change you lose parts of yourself. I found me again. really found me. The girl who used to walk that same beach at night every Summer. The dreamer, the believer the one who thought there was only good in the World. I still believe there is so much good in the World but also you have to be careful not to get absorbed and caught into the net of bad. I came back more like the dreamer and now I realize I have to love but I also have to capture my own dreams and believe again. Have a great day/evening wherever you are.

Of course I changed when you left us. What parent wouldn’t? ………..

It has been a few years since you died. I used to not even be able to say that word but do now because you did. You took a piece of my heart with you. This time of year is hard because you loved Holidays. I laugh, I enjoy your nieces and i enjoy life but it does not change the loss of you. My heart still cries and I still cry. Not everyday but I think of you everyday.

People say I changed well yeah. I did. I lost something worth more than any money in the World. I lost you. I am blessed to have your sister and her precious babies. you would have been the best Aunt ever. I laugh with them. The oldest 12, knows all about you and she even writes you notes and ask about your life. The baby is only 15 months so of course she doesn’t yet. Your sister misses having someone to talk to. I miss your laughter and how you never took life so seriously. Little things were that. Nothing to stress over.

You had challenges with Autism but you made it through struggle after struggle. I am a bit harsher now with life. I am not the old me. but I don’t have to be. the “new” me that came a bit after you died saw life from a different view. I still love, I still feel blessed with your sister and family but I will get “over” losing you. I love you. Always. Love, mom.

A Childhood Home……

I never had a home that I grew up in for years with friends that I kept and still know. We moved around several times a year and I often wonder when I hear others talk about it what that would have been like. It seems like a Fairytale to me. Not to say that I was not happy but it just never gave me the chance to bond those friendships. I remember some homes we had that I loved and I have family we visited often when we lived in another state. Just when I was talking to someone the other day and listening about their home and how they grew up, I thought, “wow, that sounds so wonderful!” All in all, I learned many things moving around, I got to see many different States in our beautiful Country and it made me adjust to change which is ironic because now I have to force myself from a rigid routine BUT I just wish maybe sometimes I had that to reflect on. Life as a child drifter. Lol. Have a great day/evening wherever you are!

Yoga, Anxiety & Me……

Well, my friend Yoga and I have not seen each other in a bit. Between chaos, life and so much going on I have to admit I have not been on the mat. I have exercised but I have just not been wanting to visit my trusted mat of Peace and tranquility. my exercise that can make me feel so good but can be so hard. But today I rolled it out and here we were. Just the Yoga videos and me. I have to say I feel great but I also have to admit I am sore. Yoga is a great way to go from weak to strngth. Loving it! have a great day/evening everybody! 🙂

when people try to turn things on you… remember… it is them… not you…

I have found when someone wants to antagonize or start a problem, they will keep on and on to try and get you to argue. Don’t. Let them continue ranting and raving. when they say that you are not”at peace” with things or that you are listening to Satan (one of my favorites) just because you do not agree with them just go on and let them be. These kind of people want a war and I am learning not to give them what they want. As long as I know I am trying to do right and I am a good person then i have learned it is because they want me to feel at odds or to not believe in me. But I do. So i have learned that when that happens, i now turn the channel in my mind to positive thinking and just do not respond to the negativity. 🙂

The New Normal… Blessings Amid the Chaos….

So much has changed in this new “normal”. Locked in, facetime for family and friends, mask, anxiety, Fear, sickness, tears, a longing to be with those you love, a desire to be in that church you always assumed would be open. The Yoga classes, the gym and the work place where it was always such a chore. the schools where our children met, learned and played. This new “normal” has sucked in so many ways. But there have been blessings too. Learning to appreciate what we took for granted. The freedom to see who we wanted when we wanted, the ones who loved being alone then found that having the opportunity to get out taken away made some of us want to reach out. It has made me have such an appreciation for things I just never worried about. I never knew wearing a mask could be so weird but I know how those with cancer must have felt or feel. The blessings have been seeing just how much we will now absorb and breathe in the ability to be able to be free again. So, along with the chaos cam the blessing of learning again how precious life can be.

Some Positive in a Negative Mind….

I am trying to replace negative thoughts and mindset with a positive one. I just an extreme over thinker and I am also an Empath/ Discerner so that can be hard but I am learning slowly to replace those negatives with a positive. So, when I worry about a person or a thing and if, for example, they are mad or upset or if I have done something, I replace it with No, there is nothing I have done and if I have, I apologize but like I used to. I do not worry now for days and every minute. I just replace with the thought that I did what i could so there. When I over worry about what could happen, I stay in the moment and realize I am fine for now. It is a very long process but at least I am giving it my best shot. i am also doing positive imaging. Try to place positive images in my mind. So, that is my place for now!

The four Seasons of the South … All in one… Until Summer…. Georgia at least..

In Georgia we get so many seasons rolled into one week until Summer. Each week, (unless it is Summertime when we have pretty much nothing but hot, sweltering, skin drenched days of heat, ) we get just such a variety of Weather. Like one day it is 65 to 70 and Sunny, the next day we have monsoon rain and flooding to be followed by a possible choice (not ours of course) of either really warm and breezy or not breezy, or Icelandic temps with gushing and biting wind that can give you frostbite. Of course no snow with any of that or rarely anyway. If we have rumors of snow, then yes, it is true. we get people buying all of the milk and bread up. Mix into that, during this spell of temps., you can sometimes fit in a Summer day with hot temps. Then Summer comes. Just hot, hotter and hottest. So, there is our yearly forecast for sweet Peach and pumpkin filled Ga. I might add, I do love it here. Just not the weird climate. lol.

Going Covid Crazy! ……. Hello Yoga, Meditation and Lots of prayer. ……..

I know. I just wrote about it. But I get writer’s block from so much time inside and I think of things I want to write about and then come here and bam. Blank. I cannot get the words. I am a bit agitated as well. plus all the Political things I try to avoid if I can so there is that. So I am back to using the Yoga to help me stay as calm as I can, the Meditation to help me to try and relax so I can write and lots of Prayer just to get me through. On top of that, my Empath/ Discernment is at an all time high. THAT does not help but I have tons of time to think and observe things socially online soooo… lol… Yes, I am just a tons of laughs! lol.