A Childhood Home……

I never had a home that I grew up in for years with friends that I kept and still know. We moved around several times a year and I often wonder when I hear others talk about it what that would have been like. It seems like a Fairytale to me. Not to say that I was not happy but it just never gave me the chance to bond those friendships. I remember some homes we had that I loved and I have family we visited often when we lived in another state. Just when I was talking to someone the other day and listening about their home and how they grew up, I thought, “wow, that sounds so wonderful!” All in all, I learned many things moving around, I got to see many different States in our beautiful Country and it made me adjust to change which is ironic because now I have to force myself from a rigid routine BUT I just wish maybe sometimes I had that to reflect on. Life as a child drifter. Lol. Have a great day/evening wherever you are!

Grief is like a Current in the River… Ever changing…..

When I lost my children, one at two days, my son Ryan, and my daughter, Nikki in a wreck with three of her friends, I did not realize how much grief can change on a daily basis. It takes a while to get over the shock that numbs you from going insane but it does not stop the pain or tears. I never realized the ups and down and like a flowing river, you have calm places, turbulent areas and dangerous pulls. Grief has been like that to me. I have times I am calm and smile at the memories. Days when I fall apart and just cry. I also have days when anger overcomes it all and I find myself fighting the pain. As time goes on I find more days of calm water but the under current is always there. Waiting.

COVID, you suck…. Been off for a bit…

WOW! I have had a LOT of family hit with Covid the last month or so and now another one this week. This is a horrible thing for them and it is scary. Some do great and whip through while others are having a harder time. So I have been focusing on that and I am just too mentally drained to write. This is such a hard situation. You go loco if you try to be cautious and stay away from people and places but then I have seen first hand where going out or just even using every pre-caution you can they still got it. I am ready for this bad boy to hang up its guns and go away!

The Holidays are here…. 2020 has been so tough that I put up Christmas decor inside… Need some cheer..

I usually have as most of us do, Thanksgiving with family and then I usually have our Annual Christmas party at my home where most of the family tried to gather together. However, due to everyone dealing with sickness, Covid, etc. or just the scare of Covid, I had to cancel my party this year. However, I decided to put up some Christmas anyway and early. Yes, I know. Only November but I love glitter, it helps my anxiety right now and so it makes me smile. So I posted a couple of my Holiday pics. If you hate it when people do that and I usually wait at least until after Thanksgiving (lol) then you may not want to peek. haahaha. Good day/evening fellow bloggers!

WordPress and why I love it here…..

I can come and share with some of the best bloggers in the World. I can express what I think, feel and like or do not like and we all stand in acceptance of each other, even when we may not agree. I love to be able to be myself and share my innermost feelings, my life in Society and just anything that helps to love, live, appreciate and enjoy. I share my heart when I am down about the loss of children, depression, anxiety, yoga, well you get it. Here. I can be me.

Be there for the elderly couples separated by this Virus….. Find a way to help them through……

I had heard many stories of elderly couples whose spouse got sick and they had to be apart after years of being with each other. It has been devastating for them. It happened to my family this week. After a battle with many cancers, my dad was finally beating another. He was weak but recovering at home. Then the virus hit and his Doctor appointments were cancelled but he seemed to be okay. Then, he started having pain. We had ambulances come to check him but he was scared to go to the hospital. He knew he would be separated from my mom due to the Covid-19 rules. Finally, he had to go. They took him and no she couldn’t be there. due to his pain, he was checked. No Covid-19 but his Cancer had come back and he had it everywhere. He had to spend his first 24 hours away from any of us. Then he was moved to Hospice, where, thank God, my mom was allowed to spend his last few hours with him though no other family. They had never spent much time apart in all of their marriage. If not for the brief hours at Hospice, he would have had to die alone with NO family. PLEASE if you know of any families going through this, elderly or even young families, find a way you can be there for them. There are so many ways to reach out if you cannot be there in person. Hugs to all of us fellow/bloggers/ writers. Rest well now my sweet Dad.

Self Isolation, How is it working for you?…. I am finding my creative side again to help with the anxiety…

I am finding myself doing things I have not done for a while. Art, outside gardening, writing on my stories, playing board games. Yeah! I have not done that in years. Trying to reconnect with family that has been in some areas drawn away from each other. Talking to family and friends on the phone or face timing. Making pictures and working on my graphics for memory photos and just for fun. So, fellow bloggers, how about you? Have you done old things into new again? Upping the Yoga, Prayer or other forms of comfort? I am . Hugs to you all!

Fighting the cold or flu with essential oils… couldn’t hurt to try it…..

Cinnamon oil, Eucalyptus oil, tea tree oil, lemon or lemongrass oil. Lavender & of course clove oil. Try them in a mix of scents you like by mixing in a bottle three parts water (small bottle) a tsp. or less of Vodka, a few drops of your favorite oils (listed above) and if you do not like the smell just try and do your best to deal with it because they kill off these viruses. You do not get the chemicals in these other room sprays and I am sick right now so I am going to make up some sprays I have not used in months. I use diffusers but not the sprays like I should. Give it a shot. It cannot hurt.