I have been waiting for the Covid results that came back negative and that was great! But in the days waiting, I pushed my Yoga, meditation, and Prayer as much as I could! I thought I would fall out but I had to do it to stay sane. I did it over and over and over everyday but I am glad. It helped even if my Anxiety kept screaming “You are going to have it!” my mind was at least calmed from a Nervous break down by doing all of these things. I am so glad now that I did because it kept me on at least a base level of sanity. lol
Well I am not sure if it is all of the praying, yoga, tai-chi, meditation or lack of people. Maybe all of the above but my empath ability is on low gear. I think probably not being around people because the others are for my Anxiety and Panic. But, either way, I am like on a no feel zone with others in ways to gauge what they are feeling. However, it sure has helped me in the anxiety department. Oh well, just thought I would share that!
I have been so caught up that I put my Yoga on a shelf in my mind where I had occasionally took it off and used it. But now I realize Yoga is a staple that I use to help me to get to quiet moments of tranquility while working me to a point where at times I think I might just fall on the floor. But my Yoga, my longtime friend, pulls me back and helps my mind and my body and my soul. So glad to bring you back.
I look at this picture whenever I need a boost to lift me up.
I am slowly training my brain to try and take my mind back. By that, I mean trying to overpower the Anxiety and Panic I get and put my brain where it was 5 years ago before I got this condition that I am understanding more and more each day. So, I am believing and I am working hard on telling myself that fear does not have to rule me. Fear does not have to run my life. I was of a strong mind before and I can be again! I will not lie, it IS a battle but I think , no, I know that if I can learn to take control of my brain back, I can overcome this. Have a wonderful day/night where ever you are.
I have challenged myself during this time to try and make my mind build strength again as I battled the Anxiety and more. I fight and fought it. And to my delight, it is a slow walk but I am becoming stronger. mentally and Physically and more. Yes, I am still battling Anxiety but I know it could have been much worse. Each day I find myself just a spoon full stronger but every little spoonful adds up. I walk now more, I am eating better, I am challenging my mind. I do Yoga, Yardwork, Devotional time, prayer, meditation and ANYTHING to keep my mind busy and I even play Brain games. NO, I do not do all of it everyday but I do some of it everyday. I accepted the challenge Thank god, so far, I am winning. Thanks to all of you who support me and keep me hanging in there and encourage me. You are a huge part of this battle! have a great day/night fellow bloggers/writers. Team US!
Too many tears, so many lies, mistrust is never far.
Lost empty fear which divides the heart.
Chains of wisdom and chains of fear bind so many.
As they struggle between trust, love and abandonment.
Trying to conquer the demons within
While looking through rose colored panes.
Sadness, rejection, hopeful, hopeless, blessed, feeling cursed, drained but determined.
Happy yet angry, loved and loving but crazy with despair.
Sun shines, rain falls, bleak hope while searching for that silver lining.
Love, hate, hurt, heal, tortures of the soul.
Broken again, Broken can heal, Broken can be stitched back together
But Broken will always shows the scars of the Journey.
I made a mixture of calming essential oils and also used my essential oil recipe for any pain. I did some Yoga and I prayed about life. I used my Meditation with some soothing music. Then I stepped outside to a full breeze fresh with beautiful clean smells and enjoyed the sun as I checked on my planted flower seeds to gauge their growth. Now I am going to do some things around the house and just try to stay busy and enjoy blessings. Hugs to you all!
As I said in my last post, enjoying good weather, beautiful nights and counting my blessings. But this Anxiety kicks in and I swear it has my head swimming. It is such a battle sometimes and I just do not know why I cannot knock it some days. It is just like trying to keep me down when I am trying even harder to stay lifted up. I hope it is easier for all of you. Hugs!
I go through many, read and like but I can never seem to get to them all. So today I am strolling through bloggers/writers who follow me and returning the favor. I may only be able to read one of each but I hope to get to them all. That would be great. doubtful but great. I appreciate all of you who read mine and I try to do the same as my thank you. We have a wonderful place here! 🙂