Tryin to re-train things in my brain to Positive vs. Negative….

This has been a year if I ever need to switch from negative to positive, this has been it. I realized how much negative was in my mind when battle after after mental battle erupted. Not to say i am totally negative because I have funny days as well but I have had to let go of a lot of it. Toxic thoughts, people, environment and more. But there, as in life, have been really good things and some really bad things that have happened this year. Maybe Covid made the bad things seem worse, I don’t know. So That is what I am trying to do. On the plus side, I have Lucifer (the Chihuahua guard dog to ensure a good chuckle when I am having really bad moments. I mean, as long as I can laugh safely away from him. Have a great day/evening everyone.

Merry Christmas… Happy Holidays… Happy Hannukah….etc…..

No matter what your belief, color, political thoughts, profession, etc. I just want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas from me. I hope love is filled in all of our homes and we can grab some positive from somewhere on this Holiday. We are all on the same Island called life and so we can all be united in that if nothing else. I hope for those of us who are mourning that something will bring a smile from someone we miss or something that is bringing us down. so, here is a virtual hug and a smile filled with love from me to you.

I am doing some Martial Arts, Yoga, and a LOT of prayer to keep my mind calm…

I want to get back to more cheerful post but this is a tough time of year for me and 2020 sure has not helped. However, with a lot of stress and that time of year I cry over my daughter ( natural when you lose a child) and she loved the Holidays and then left us in February, three days after Valentines. Soooo, to try and bring some happy that is locked inside of me. So I am doing my exercises and prayer and doing the things needed to help me appreciate my blessings. I am blessed to have this place to come to.

Good to be back…

I took a hiatus to clear my mind, soul ,body and hear but it is good to be back on here. I had to do something to help me to get rid of toxins in my head, body and toxic people and relationships that were trying to really keep me down. But I am just as guilty for letting it affect me and letting them do it so I had to step back. But I did. I am feeling clearer and more determined to conquer some things so thank you to everyone who reads my sometimes weird stuff. At least it is not boring all of the time. lol.

Now it makes me schedule when I post? Not you too WordPress… Please… ugh…

I managed my way through the new WordPress with help from a friend. Thank you so much! But NOW, it has assigned it to where I have to schedule my post. This is all getting annoying and really, charging to go back to original WordPress, to me, is just wrong. My rant for the day. 🙂

Silent Babies………

I am glad women are speaking out about their babies that are stillborn, babies that do not make it to full term and babies who live for short periods but never make it home from the Hospitals. My mother was pregnant when I was young, apparently my little sister was stillborn. I know she named her Wendy, we waited for a baby that never came home. I remember little bags being sent from our mom with candy and gum in them to us. Then she came home with no baby. we knew she went in to have one. The only thing really said was that Wendy went to heaven. That was it and then Life went on because we didn’t or were not allowed to question about it. There was not even a service. I have no clue what happened to the baby. I called them “silent babies” to myself later on.

Later, I had my son, who only lived two days. I was in great pain in my heart but never spoke much about it after the service I did have for him. I actually never even mentioned him until a few short years ago. I do not even know why other than it was just so painful. even the babies later on that I never carried past three months trying to have my youngest daughter were ever spoken of. Now, women are talking about it and I am glad. These were our babies. They have a place in our hearts and in this World to be remembered. Another good in freaky 2020.

It is good to laugh. To Love. To be happy……

I was on the couch the other night just feeling sorry for myself. Yes, i do that. Then I thought of all of the things I am blessed with. I am blessed with so many things and I realized if I spend more time thinking of all of the good in my life, I sure will have less time for self pity. It is life and my mind overthinks every little thing. BUT I am blessed to have a sound mind that can over think so there is another blessing… I am blessed to be able to laugh, love, be happy. I am blessed to be able to take a walk and to do so many things. i am blessed with the ability to create Art and write… So today I just wanted to share that! have a great day/evening where ever you are my friends!

It was cold in my part of Ga. last night……. Even my inflatable snowmen were shivering…lol

It was cold here. ouch. we got a tash of snow in some areas but gone this a.m. of course. I grew up in the North so I was always used to the cold but then it snowed so we always played in the snow. Here, we just have the cold. No fun with it. haha. But, it is life in the South. The temps are always like the lottery. you never know what you are going to get. well, have a great day/evening!