I have learned a lot this past year…. I am normal.

I have laughed. I have cried. I have had good days and bad days. I have forgiven and i have been unforgiving. I have been happy and I have been sad. i have judged and been judged. I have had moments of darkness and moments of light. What I have learned most of all is that many if not all of us go through these phases of our journey. It is okay to have them ad it is okay to not be okay. It is okay if I am outspoken and honest. I have been negative at times and positive other times. Not everyone likes to agree that we may have to disagree. But all in all, that is okay. Because I am me. And I realize me is just who I am meant to be.

My inspiration to write comes from my heart…..

I write because my heart gets ull and my head seems overwhelmed so I come here and I write it. All. Everything. My life. My thoughts. My fears. My joys. My losses. Y sorrows. My blessings. My pain. Because here I can be me. I can say things and not be judged. I can be me. You can you. You can read my things and I can read yours. I love it here. My private little World shared with others here.

The stress is getting strong on some days…..

Wow. I am trying really hard to be positive but sometimes the stress and anxiety get to me. I am wondering how many others are feeling the overload. Then on top of that, the empath part of me is topped off from the chaos of other minds just bringing in tons of input. I love my Yoga, prayer, meditation and trying to keep it together but sometimes it seems no matter how much I work to be positive is when, bam! I get knocked back a bit. But still hanging in there! Have a great day/evening wherever you are! 🙂

Inner peace in an outside chaotic World……

The stress had gotten pretty bad so I had to seek intervention because I seriously thought I was losing it. I hope this might help someone else out there because it has helped me a good bit. I am not at 100 but I will take any at this point. Anyway, the Yoga, prayers, meditation and all of that kept the stress in my mind at bay but it was still bad. So, from the Inner Counseling sessions I learned and apply these daily now. 1. Think positive. Truly replace every negative with a positive. 2. STOP letting people get to me. Especially when I KNOW it is intentional. Instead of letting it eat at me, think of it like a movie. I am at war and I am determined to win becauseI want the victory. 3. Truly just let it go, whatever it is if I cannot change it. I just visualized a paper boat filled with all my troubles, loaded down and I placed it in a stream of clear water and watched it flow away. It takes a lot to train your brain but it can be done! 🙂

I found one… the ever elusive family teen… and it spoke…there is hope after all…

I have a lot of teens in our huge family and they are all over the place and doing “their” thing and well, being teens. But the most wonderful thing happened the other day. After the last couple of years off having to hunt for them in their houses like children hunt for Easter eggs, i would find them but they would have their phone on or smile and just tap at their social media (code for be with you in a sec. broken down to mean never). So, I had really gotten to the point of just not bothering them other than to wave hi when I would see one of these elusive creatures. BUT! Here it comes! I went to a sisters the other day and one actually emerged! Like a real life version. Actually looked in my eyes and smiled.

Then she spoke. Words. Sentences. Actually conversed with me as did her brother. I took pictures. I smiled back. It was such a beautiful 3.2 minutes. There IS hope after all!!!!!!!!!!!

To love as they are….does not mean changing everything…

Yes, I am on a roll today but I am angry at all of the crap going on just to please people. Like the saying goes, you cannot please all of the people all of the time. Well, no you can’t. My peeve is this. Now we have to be careful not to offend anyone over anything. I say if you don’t like it walk away from it. If you want to be straight, gay, transgender, bi sexual, whatever, that is your choice as an adult. But I do not believe it has to be changed so a woman cannot be called a woman, or a man, just that. A man. That we have to change labels from he or she or whatever new labels are being made. If people want new titles, fine. But do not deny those who choose the tiles we have known all our lives. Our Nation needs to stop now and if we want changes, fine. But also respect those who are happy being “identified” as a man or a woman. I would say I am sorry but I am not. It s why I have not been writing because I didn’t want to offend anyone but I am OFFENDED. The difference is, I am stating how I feel not trying to take anyone else’s beliefs or right from them.

The Raining Heart……..

Hearts are raining everyday

Tears of joy, tears of pain.

We do not see it and often do not even know it.

They are filled with emotion

Joy, sorrow, empathy, love, hate, pain.

our hearts are the river to our souls

we can choose how we empty that overflow.

I am trying to let my raining heart fill the World

with love, empathy, joy and happiness

and dry out the anger, sorrow, pain and hate.

we all need raining hearts to help this World..

A Beautiful Day……

It is a day when you see smiling faces and couples and flowers and candies along with new announcements of Weddings to come and on and on. But to me, it is a beautiful Day to feel love and how it surrounds and envelops people. A day to give and receive love to anyone you want. It doesn’t have to be just a spouse or lover. More people do it now to others besides just a spouse or lover. I love the thought it should be given to anyone you consider your Valentine, even your fur baby if you choose. It might even be your pet fish or lizard. No matter whom or what show and get some heart love. 🙂

Living with Teens?….. Fear not… They know it all…

If you have teenagers, have no fear. You are in luck. They know EVERYTHING! Need to know how to parent them? Just ask. They can tell you because they already researched all of your current (and past mistakes) , every single thing on one of their many Social Medias. They will guide you with their life experiences. yes. it is true. Need to know how or what to do with something? well, you are, once again in luck. They have been there, done that, lived it and you, the sweet parent you are trying to be just don’t get it but they are going to show you every step. There is no situation a teen is not a hundred percent sure they can give you the answer to because I mean, look at all the children THEY have raised. (That is some alien secret they have kept from us). My goodness, we who have teens are blessed indeed. Because they live with us, obviously the lower life form of intelligence, life with a teen is awesome. Just ask. They will tell you. EVERY. SINGLE. THING. lol