Day 19: Panic and Anxiety.

Having company today and my fellow victims of this thing we call depression, anxiety, and/or panic attacks, I think there is hope

on the horizon. Yes, we can overcome this with positive thoughts and re-training our brain. As he said in the video, we have to stand guard and be sure we are protecting the positive aspect of our brains. Bad days also? Sure. But I hope that by doing this and all of the methods I am using, that I will OVERCOME the negative and develop it into a positive. So, for example, something negative occurs. We stop the thought, control our brain and empower it to stop. WE control our brain. WE teach our brain, WE are the master of the mind God gave us.

I am still working on it so I hope it to be positive from here on and I hope that I will have the ability to overcome the negative that comes up and use it in a positive way. I have to take my focus off worry as I was doing earlier and just believe it is or will be okay. We need to learn from what works for each of us, the path back to Freedom. The freedom not to feel that panic or the ability to defeat the depression or anxiety. Try your different methods. Pick from some of mine or try your own journey to see what will work for you.


Today was not bad, not great. I didn’t sleep well last night so I am sure that didn’t help.

I was okay but got kind of freaked when warned of a possible tornado and I was here alone but I got through it, did some praying and some positive thinking with my door included.

Other than that, it seems to go as well as can be expected and I am learning to deal with the stress of everyday issues.

Short one today but working on book.

Have a great evening!

Christians today and why we must stay strong.

As you have obviously seen, I am struggling right now with this great mind god gave me. However, I have to stand strong.

We all should stand strong even when our faith is the size of a mustard seed. My mustard seed has a small sprout now.

it is okay to stand for what you believe in. That does not mean you are judging others or not loving them. Those who truly love you will respect that you have different beliefs.

If not, they will walk away and so I pray for their journey just as I pray for mine.

It is okay to be a real person and not a fake one in the aspect that you please everyone all the time. Then you are NOT really YOU. You are a robot to the world because you cannot be who you are as God designed you.

Just because I am struggling and walking a glass tipped road right now makes me no less of a believer.

It just means my road is painful right now so I must get through the pain.

I used to think that God never designed us to have be on ANY medication. I DO believe since Doctors are paid well to get you on meds they get a profit from that it is over done BUT there are times.

We may not believe the same way or about the same things. But we can agree to disagree. It is not my place to judge you, nor your place to judge me.

If we spread more love around this world, genuine love and show ways of caring, it goes a long way.

DAYS 11& 12 : Panic and anxiety

I had two really good days. I took a trip to see family and I am still working on resolving my issues within myself. I am learning to let go of the guilt, the past that caused this and all of the other issues that made me always think, “Of course, only me”.

It was happening to me because I allowed my mind to believe it.  Yes, things happen in life but it was my negative thoughts and disbelief in myself that brought it on.

Our minds are powerful tools but we can rise from the muck and mire as I have often heard said by others.

THAT is why I am re-training my brain. It is also why I am taking it a step at a time. In 12 days, my panics have cut back a lot. Do I still get them? They try to start off and I fight back. Some methods that are working for me are as follows:

Prayer, a page I wrote and carry with me now with a saying on it and some Bible verses that get me through. I also listen to calming music. Zen music, meditation music, spa music, and at other times nature sounds because I love Nature. Breathing techniques and more. Sounds like a lot of work because it is a lot of work BUT if it stops this, Amen to that.

I have picked up my camera again.

I have learned that the things that are stressing me out, I cannot change by stressing so I avert my mind to other things.

I am down to one med and occasional aspirin and I am trying Holy Basil BUT I have to be careful and not combine those two on the same day because both can thin the blood or so it say’s in some of the places I looked up.

I am exercising but in small amounts. Pilates , yoga, walking and all over exercises to strengthen my body along with my mind.

I usually do 10 minutes at a time for now, a couple of times a day.

So there are we are. As of now. 🙂

Day 10: Panic and negativity

So I am learning to focus on more positive as opposed to negative.

I wish people could understand that this is a battle and so while you avoid us because of our negativity, it is actually an issue that could be made more positive if you realized this is a battle that we struggle with.

The fear is not real and as we work to train our minds to that thought, maybe keep in mind, you cannot judge what you don’t understand.

I am having some great days and some not so good days since I started this but I don’t need nor want sympathy or just not speaking because it might affect your sunshine world.

Keep in mind that in a world where we all have to be “happy” all the time, there may come a time after I have overcome this when you may need me.

It would feel sad to think that I didn’t want to step in because I might be affected or “infected with your problem.

We find out who our real friends are when going through this and on the up side, we learn we were never really their friend at all.

Just someone they used for their wants until things went sour.

I am thankful I have learned things about my own self. That I was allowing negative thoughts instead of positive.

That I worry too much.

That I allow my OCD to try and control me..

That I would hold a grudge and not even know it.

However, I was always the first one there if I could be there when needed.

As I still have some who support me and I SO appreciate that, they just don’t know, I have found others who talk it well but never even send a text or a call to say “Thinking of you or checking on you.”.

I guess that was Gods way of showing me who felt I held some kind of importance in their lives.

The others I never needed anyway.

So, as I/we continue this journey, remember, the ones who care will show it in some form or another.

The ones who talk you will not hear from. What does it profit, my brethren, if someone says he has faith but does not have works? Can faith save him? 15 If a brother or sister is naked and destitute of daily food, 16 and one of you says to them, “Depart in peace, be warmed and filled,” but you do not give them the things which are needed for the body, what does it profit? 17 Thus also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead.

The body includes the mind.

So, while I have or should say, I am learning as I go, I have realized the negative things I have to work on and who I can count on when the flooding begins.  Get rid of the people in your life who just do NOT care. Love them but let them go.

Re-Training the Brain for Christians

In your heart there is a door. The outside of the door is black. That is fear AKA Satan.

The inside of the door is white. That is Faith AKA God.

When Satan knocks, have God answer the door for you and say the following:

1. “She/he is a child me, the most high God”.

2.” No weapons formed against her/him shall prosper”.

3. “As long as he/she stays in the faith, I will deliver him/her, I will restore him/her, I will vindicate him/her. I will heal him/her. ”

4.”I am her/his  salvation and light, whom shall she/he fear?

5.” He/she is strong of courage, for I, the Lord their God is with them.”

6. He/she will not fear because he/she knows to whom they belong”.