Christians today and why we must stay strong.

As you have obviously seen, I am struggling right now with this great mind god gave me. However, I have to stand strong.

We all should stand strong even when our faith is the size of a mustard seed. My mustard seed has a small sprout now.

it is okay to stand for what you believe in. That does not mean you are judging others or not loving them. Those who truly love you will respect that you have different beliefs.

If not, they will walk away and so I pray for their journey just as I pray for mine.

It is okay to be a real person and not a fake one in the aspect that you please everyone all the time. Then you are NOT really YOU. You are a robot to the world because you cannot be who you are as God designed you.

Just because I am struggling and walking a glass tipped road right now makes me no less of a believer.

It just means my road is painful right now so I must get through the pain.

I used to think that God never designed us to have be on ANY medication. I DO believe since Doctors are paid well to get you on meds they get a profit from that it is over done BUT there are times.

We may not believe the same way or about the same things. But we can agree to disagree. It is not my place to judge you, nor your place to judge me.

If we spread more love around this world, genuine love and show ways of caring, it goes a long way.


DAYS 11& 12 : Panic and anxiety

I had two really good days. I took a trip to see family and I am still working on resolving my issues within myself. I am learning to let go of the guilt, the past that caused this and all of the other issues that made me always think, “Of course, only me”.

It was happening to me because I allowed my mind to believe it.  Yes, things happen in life but it was my negative thoughts and disbelief in myself that brought it on.

Our minds are powerful tools but we can rise from the muck and mire as I have often heard said by others.

THAT is why I am re-training my brain. It is also why I am taking it a step at a time. In 12 days, my panics have cut back a lot. Do I still get them? They try to start off and I fight back. Some methods that are working for me are as follows:

Prayer, a page I wrote and carry with me now with a saying on it and some Bible verses that get me through. I also listen to calming music. Zen music, meditation music, spa music, and at other times nature sounds because I love Nature. Breathing techniques and more. Sounds like a lot of work because it is a lot of work BUT if it stops this, Amen to that.

I have picked up my camera again.

I have learned that the things that are stressing me out, I cannot change by stressing so I avert my mind to other things.

I am down to one med and occasional aspirin and I am trying Holy Basil BUT I have to be careful and not combine those two on the same day because both can thin the blood or so it say’s in some of the places I looked up.

I am exercising but in small amounts. Pilates , yoga, walking and all over exercises to strengthen my body along with my mind.

I usually do 10 minutes at a time for now, a couple of times a day.

So there are we are. As of now. 🙂

Day 10: Panic and negativity

So I am learning to focus on more positive as opposed to negative.

I wish people could understand that this is a battle and so while you avoid us because of our negativity, it is actually an issue that could be made more positive if you realized this is a battle that we struggle with.

The fear is not real and as we work to train our minds to that thought, maybe keep in mind, you cannot judge what you don’t understand.

I am having some great days and some not so good days since I started this but I don’t need nor want sympathy or just not speaking because it might affect your sunshine world.

Keep in mind that in a world where we all have to be “happy” all the time, there may come a time after I have overcome this when you may need me.

It would feel sad to think that I didn’t want to step in because I might be affected or “infected with your problem.

We find out who our real friends are when going through this and on the up side, we learn we were never really their friend at all.

Just someone they used for their wants until things went sour.

I am thankful I have learned things about my own self. That I was allowing negative thoughts instead of positive.

That I worry too much.

That I allow my OCD to try and control me..

That I would hold a grudge and not even know it.

However, I was always the first one there if I could be there when needed.

As I still have some who support me and I SO appreciate that, they just don’t know, I have found others who talk it well but never even send a text or a call to say “Thinking of you or checking on you.”.

I guess that was Gods way of showing me who felt I held some kind of importance in their lives.

The others I never needed anyway.

So, as I/we continue this journey, remember, the ones who care will show it in some form or another.

The ones who talk you will not hear from. What does it profit, my brethren, if someone says he has faith but does not have works? Can faith save him? 15 If a brother or sister is naked and destitute of daily food, 16 and one of you says to them, “Depart in peace, be warmed and filled,” but you do not give them the things which are needed for the body, what does it profit? 17 Thus also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead.

The body includes the mind.

So, while I have or should say, I am learning as I go, I have realized the negative things I have to work on and who I can count on when the flooding begins.  Get rid of the people in your life who just do NOT care. Love them but let them go.

Re-Training the Brain for Christians

In your heart there is a door. The outside of the door is black. That is fear AKA Satan.

The inside of the door is white. That is Faith AKA God.

When Satan knocks, have God answer the door for you and say the following:

1. “She/he is a child me, the most high God”.

2.” No weapons formed against her/him shall prosper”.

3. “As long as he/she stays in the faith, I will deliver him/her, I will restore him/her, I will vindicate him/her. I will heal him/her. ”

4.”I am her/his  salvation and light, whom shall she/he fear?

5.” He/she is strong of courage, for I, the Lord their God is with them.”

6. He/she will not fear because he/she knows to whom they belong”.

Re-Training the brain DAY NINE

Today I am focusing on re-training my brain. We all have a past that we can carry or just put down and go on. It will not fix anything because the past cannot be changed. We can only focus on today. This is a large part of anxiety in our lives. Or other stress.

So to start re-training the brain, we have to let go of what was and believe in what is.

Today is a new day. I believe in God, you may not . My faith is often the grain of a mustard seed but it is enough to for God to hold on and help.

I believe that we are allowed many avenues to help us get past our past and one of mine is music. I love the moonlight Sonata by Beethoven.

I am also listening to hypnosis videos of calming and safe meditation. I am learning to just take each day for what it is and accept that.

If it gets overwhelming, I breathe in deeply or sometimes just slowly. Whatever works.

But if we carry our past as luggage, it just weighs us down.

I know I am a good person and I am always trying to help those in need and I have a heart for abused children whether it is mental or physical.

So how do we re-train our brain and let go of the past and still pluck out the things that made us good?

By doing just that. Pluck out any things that made you a good person and see yourself throwing all the rest in a trash bag and throwing it away.

That is how I am starting this day.

I made mistakes but those who judge me for that need to look at themselves. None of us are without fault so we have to realize that and go on.

Let go of toxic people who hinder you from being who you CAN become.

My animals are actually Aliens

They could not possibly be from this planet. Today was Cat day. They are now taking turns. Yesterday was Nitro day with his 90 lb. puppy 8 month self. You can see that blog on here. Today, it was Hercules and Cujo. Beware what you name your animals.

They decided to knock my speakers off, turn on the hot water in the kitchen, toss the keyboard to the floor and then decided it would be fun to tear my flower arrangement to the floor, piece by piece.

Next they threw my internet boxes all over the floor and slung my notepad to the ground,so that, of course, Nitro could eat it. into shreds I might add.

These are not real animals obviously. Though I do not believe in Aliens, these three must have come from some strange planet I was unaware of.

They tag team, they destroy, they attack (the kitties) when you least expect it and then now they are turning the water on and running it at full blast until I can slam up here to turn it off.

Thy are all spoiled with luxuries most animals only wish for. You cannot spank a Shepherd which I would not do anyway as I believe in positive reinforcement.

Cats cannot be controlled but then, these are not cats. They are of a species that resemble cats, they purr like cats and they even let kids play with them.

I am allowed petting time when they are ready for it. Ready for it so they can allow 10 seconds before they gouge my arms.

Yes, then again, my animals are aliens, after all.