DAY THREE: Overcoming anxiety and panic attacks

Day three went much better. I went to the Doctor for a checkup and it was long but I got through.

I am doing hypnosis videos as well as calming music therapy.

I also just use music therapy in listening to songs I like.

I am exercising just in small amounts and I have been eating anti oxidants.

I am still working to reverse the negative into the positive.

That was day three. 🙂

Did I have a couple of moments? Yes, but I fought them.


DAY TWO: Journal on Anxiety & Panic Attacks.

Day two and starting okay so far even around chaotic morning. We will see how day goes. 🙂

Emergency problems arose as soon as I got up. (To me, they are anyway,lol). However, since releasing, and part of the re-training, I was able to get through it without the usual melt down.

I will be alone again today which usually sets a panic in order but so far so good. It doesn’t seem to bother me thus far so I will meet the challenges as they come.

Well, I had to wait until today to finish day two. I did end up having a friend over and I thought that was good but as it turns out, my fear of having one while she was here made it worse. I got through the day and then had a full blown attack last night that lasted two hours or more.

But I did get through it and no ER visits because Dan just stayed with me and I did a lot of the techniques I have been trying.

It was a rough but learning day so that is a plus.

Journal to overcome and get rid of Anxiety and Panic Attacks

Day One: I thought I would share my journey. The ups and the downs. The Good, the Bad, The Ugly.

This may help others who suffer or have suffered this terrible demon. I am starting this journey alone with the a prayer warrior or two and honestly, I don’t how it will go. But, for those who understand, maybe we can ride this road together.

1. Let go. This morning, I am letting of “what if’s”. So what?  If isn’t here yet. When it comes I will  have to take it head on. Will it work? Day one, so we will see, Lord Willing, how it progresses.

2. Let go of anger. If someone has harmed you, whether you or right or they are, it is just an obstacle in our path. You cannot change them, you cannot make them be what you need, you cannot make them understand. Let it go.

3. Take responsibility that we did this to ourselves. Like it or not, we allowed our brain to accept this fear. Now we have to stand up and fight back.  This is NOT a mental illness, it is a Behavior illness that we gave to our mind.

4. Train your thoughts to a vision that shows you armed for battle. Be courageous. Get our swords ready.

5. We CAN do it. But we cannot place blame. It hurts us, not the ones who hurt us. If we must fight this battle alone, God has plenty of warriors to stand by our side.

6. Take charge of the things we can control and that valuable thing is our mind. Teach the Amygdala (a part of your brain) that you are not a victim but a victor.

7. Some of us are on meds for these issues. NEVER attempt cold turkey on your own. Get your doctor to help.

8. We have to realize this is NOT something we have to live with. Yes, it may be a challenge but we need to take our lives back. No one who has not been through it can understand it.

9. Let GO of the past. Build a brick wall each day to stop the past from entering. We cannot change it so therefore, we should not dwell on it. It is DONE.

10. It is not weak people that battle this. It is strong and intelligent people that somehow got turned around and led our minds through this path for reasons known or unknown.

OKAY, this is my day one battle. So far, it is working. I would also like to say this is something I am sharing as I go. I do not claim to offer medical advice, treatment or anything else. I am just sharing what I am going through.

Why People do not come to church anymore and their answers as to why

I invite a lot of people to church via internet and in person. I get a lot of “Um, sure.”, “Yeah I might check it out some time” “well sure when I get a day off” and the excuses go on and on. So, I decided to ask my friends and just people I have on there the “REAL” reason they don’t come, just honest answers. here is what I got back and I shortened the list to the  most popular reasons. So, here they are:

1. Fake people. They went on to explain they had visited several churches where people were friendly but they felt somewhat snubbed if they were not dressed up nicely enough and /or just did not seem to fit the “pattern”.

2. The churches that never checked back to see how they were doing. They felt if a church did not care enough to check, they did not really care.

3. Church splits. They would go to a church for a while, love it, feel all this love and then one person gets mad and the church splits. The thing that caused them to leave was because they felt if the people who left were as committed as they acted, they would have stuck it out. They said it should have been about God and his love, not about that persons anger or un-forgiveness.

4. FACEBOOK: What a shocker! Not really. Not for me anyway. They said they would meet people from church, join or see their face book and see Bible quotes, scriptures, I love God and etc. and then next they see cussing, arguing, talk about sex, half nude pics and etc. To them that was a turn off because they said they KNEW their lives were screwed up but why go to learn about God when the people there at church don’t even apply what they supposedly live.

5.Kids and the parents lack of respect for a church or the Pastor. They said that they went to churches where they saw such a lack of respect for making he kids learn that this is a place for worship and teaching kids about God. Not a daycare center.

6. IF they come to church, they will be judged or the people will smile to their face and they hear whispers behind their back. They said they have worldy friends that are better than that to them.

This is a list or REAL” reasons from real people so maybe we should all think long and hard about this list and how we live our lives. No one is perfect, we all make mistakes but be what you say you are. IF you mess up and someone knew is there, admit it. IF you have face book and talk about how great God is, do not turn around and do number 4. THEY are watching.

So, on that note, I told them I was publishing this.

The BEST invention since ice cream for hardwood floors

I struggle with my vacs which are all great but when it comes to my vinyl and hardwood floors, I have issues becaue I have a 74 lb. pup which sheds. Sooooo, after watching my hubby one afternoon, I happened upon his wet/dry vac. I got the light bulb in my head and bam! I got one (remove filter when soaking up water) and wow! It sucks up everything I do not want my good vacs destroyed with. Not only that, the suction is so good you can use it on ceilings, ceiling fans and just about anything and it comes with as many attachments as a reg vac. Now I use my good vac for carpet and such and my wet/dry vac for all my non carpet needs!

Things I have learned over the years:

Things I have learned over time in a Journey I take every day:
1. It is easy to say I forgive, but much harder to actually do.

2. The bible say’s to love your enemy but it is hard to put into practice sometimes.

3. James 1:19 and Proverbs 17:28 are verses I need to apply daily because I am quick to speak before I ever try to listen. James 1:19 – Wherefore, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath:
Proverbs 17:28 – Even a fool, when he holdeth his peace, is counted wise: [and] he that shutteth his lips [is esteemed] a man of understanding.

4. Judge not, lest you be judged is a verse I need to live by more often.

5. I have a problem with my temper and I often find myself asking for forgiveness. Quite often, actually.

6. That I need to remember when God said, Vengeance is mine, sayeth the Lord, that I need to let him handle it instead of trying to seek it myself.

7. That having discernment is a gift that can be challenging and I have to constantly seperate my own human feelings from the spiritual feelings that God has given me.

8. That I am human also and I fail probably worse than most but that is why we are forgiven.

9. That no matter how much I try to do kind things, I will be returned with hate about 70% of the time as soon as I make that same person mad.

10. That Pastor’s are always on the cutting board, ready to be chopped up at any mistake, no matter how small.

These are the reasons that I and every other disciple of God need to be in our Bible daily and living the life we profess to live. Because, at the end of the day, God knows me and my heart. We may put up a front before others, but the very God we claim to serve knows us inside and out. Because we are human he also knows we will fail time and again. However, we should never think we are above others. We should know that when we bash or harm anyone, especially our Christian brothers and sisters, that we are supposed to be in fellowship with, that we are essentially crucifying Christ again.

What I have learned and I am still learning, is that I need to go back to serving like I was years ago, before the world and circumstances hardened my heart. When we had a small group of Youth that we were trying to show God’s love to and we served and lived the Bible daily. Then Nikki died and I said I didn’t blame God but in a way I guess I did because that is when my heart started to harden just a bit. I allowed the world to step in and I saw things with a critical eye instead of spiritual one. For none of us, whether Christian or not, has a right not to be humble. Just an insight in my daily Journey. 🙂