Entitled Generation

We live in a world of an “entitled generation”. From kids, to teens to young adults, they seem to feel they are “entitled ” to be given what they want, when they want and speak to whomever they wish in any manner, regardless of who you are. And it is our fault for allowing it. We didn’t have to “beat” these kids into submission or any of the other methods of military discipline BUT we should have shown consequences. Some of us did but we still made up for it with presents, money etc.

I am really surprised to see kids and teens who cuss their parents, demand and throw fits until they get what they want, parents who cave in just to get away from the abuse. YES it is abuse. And if we don’t start to control it soon, this is the future adults who will have no empathy, no respect and just a zone where it is all about them.

No, it is not. It is time to stop blaming your parents and everyone else for what you do wrong. Take responsibility for your actions and learn what morals, loyalty, family and self respect mean. If not, we are in trouble. Because of the kids of today will lead our Country tomorrow.

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Why many people are turning away from God these days. (Even if you are not a Christian, please read)

My brother in law posted an article yesterday about Christians and cursing and so on. It detailed how we often judge when our sins are just the same and it gave light to many things. But where it struck home with me was in how I act and am. My husband is a contractor but he is also a Pastor.

Now, being I am human of course, I am not the typical Pastor’s wife. I can be quick tempered, I am found guilty of holding a grudge and not realizing it, I can hurt back when I am hurt and so many other things I do that are NOT what the Bible say’s to do to show how we should live.

There are probably MORE non- Christians doing good in this day and time than there are Christians. I am not trying to convert anyone because that is not my decision for anyone to make but I am writing this because I realize after reading that article that I am so at fault in so many areas.

I am by nature, kind, forgiving, and always desiring to help others if I can.  I love, I have a compassion for animals and abused children but if I were not a person that believed in God, I would be much worse than I am. So, point being, fellow believers, the next time we look down on someone, judge someone, hate on someone or find we are holding back forgiveness when they hurt us, maybe it is time WE asked for forgiveness and learn to practice what we so quickly preach.

A Day in the Life

So, fellow peeps. it has been kind of good the last few days. I hope I am on a roll here. I had a few moments today but got through it. I want to THANK all of you who follow and understand this crazy thing we go through and that includes those who do not have it.  You know, even though I have most of my friends on here I love to blog about life and the reality of what people go through.

I am so glad to have this and to be able to express myself without shame or guilt. I love that I have people who have been there, done that, or are doing it now. I am just happy to be able to share these thoughts and feelings and have people who care and understand. Well, that is my short blog for the moment.

When you are a part of us. For family and friends of those who have anxiety or panic.

No, you don’t understand us or our issue. Some of you try but you can’t see it so you either run from it or try to help by blindly doing what you might think helps. We love those of you who do try and we are sad for those who rung because you are running from us as well.

So, I am going to try and take you into our world and see if I can give you a glimpse of what it feels like or how scary it can be. Take your worst phobia or fear and imagine going through it. An example would be claustrophobia. The fear of closed in spaces. Have someone put you in a tiny confined area with no light and close you in. They are not going to tell you when they will let you out.

So, there you are, with no idea when or how you can get out. There is no escape. The fear builds the longer you are there and no one comes to get you out. Thoughts start getting into your head and you get more and more panicked with each minute that ticks by. Seconds seem like hours.

Finally, after what seems to have been hours, the door opens but you are shaking, terrified and beyond any way of calming yourself down. the person with you tries to console you but it does no good. Because why? You are in a state of panic. Your mind is playing games with you and finally,finally, after you think you are on the brink of going insane, you get calm.

That is what happens in our life when these moments come. This is how our lives are in these moments. Yes, there are things we learn and use to get better and then a day comes and bam, it hits out of the blue. I only began having panic attacks less than two years ago. I went from a strong, very independent person to a person who found herself totally at a loss as to what had happened.

I still battle it and although MOST of my days are good, and I am so grateful and blessed for that, I am never sure when they will pop up. But, I thought maybe if those around us could just get a small glimpse of what we go through, it might help them to understand. We need you to know, not run.

The up and down Merry-go-Round of Panic and Anxiety

I have been doing good and having a majority of good days but today started off thus far kind of back sliding. I woke at 5:30 a.m. with pain across my breast bone. I fell back asleep but when I got up for the day, it was still there gnawing at me. I got nervous, of course and went to look it up. I RARELY do that anymore but of course you know how we get at pains or scary unknown hurts.

It seems to be common an I hope it is but at first, one of the signs was heart attack. I pray not because it is gone mostly now but the dumb thing about panic and anxiety that I hate is that it is often confused with heart attack so it is always scary.

Needless to say, I had to have some calm down time. It is so crazy this secret world we live in because it is mixed with joy, fear, happy and scared. So, I am now at a calmer state but I wish they could come up with a magic watch that tells us what is actually going on. Kind of like a built in heart monitor on the watch that beeps out, “NO, you are fine. This is NOT heart related or NO you are fine, it is a stomach thing. I have Crohn’s so that doesn’t help sometimes.

So today, I will probably worry but I TRY no to run to urgent care at every pain. Then I just hope and pray I am right and if it doesn’t get better I guess I end up going. However, that is the stupid up and down of anxiety and/or panic and it just plain sucks sometimes. So, I will try to be positive, reflect on my blessings and just relax.

 

Things I have learned over time in a Journey I take every day:

1. It is easy to say I forgive, but much harder to actually do.

2. The bible say’s to love your enemy but it is hard to put into practice sometimes.

3. James 1:19 and Proverbs 17:28 are verses I need to apply daily because I am quick to speak before I ever try to listen. James 1:19 – Wherefore, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath:
Proverbs 17:28 – Even a fool, when he holdeth his peace, is counted wise: [and] he that shutteth his lips [is esteemed] a man of understanding.

4. Judge not, lest you be judged is a verse I need to live by more often.

5. I have a problem with my temper and I often find myself asking for forgiveness. Quite often, actually.

6. That I need to remember when God said, Vengeance is mine, sayeth the Lord, that I need to let him handle it instead of trying to seek it myself.

7. That having discernment is a gift that can be challenging and I have to constantly separate my own human feelings from the spiritual feelings that God has given me.

8. That I am human also and I fail probably worse than most but that is why we are forgiven.

9. That no matter how much I try to do kind things, I will be returned with hate about 70% of the time as soon as I make that same person mad.

10. That Pastor’s are always on the cutting board, ready to be chopped up at any mistake, no matter how small.

These are the reasons that I and every other disciple of God need to be in our Bible daily and living the life we profess to live. Because, at the end of the day, God knows me and my heart. We may put up a front before others, but the very God we claim to serve knows us inside and out. Because we are human he also knows we will fail time and again. However, we should never think we are above others. We should know that when we bash or harm anyone, especially our Christian brothers and sisters, that we are supposed to be in fellowship with, that we are essentially crucifying Christ again.

What I have learned and I am still learning, is that I need to go back to serving like I was years ago, before the world and circumstances hardened my heart. When we had a small group of Youth that we were trying to show God’s love to and we served and lived the Bible daily. Then Nikki died and I said I didn’t blame God but in a way I guess I did because that is when my heart started to harden just a bit. I allowed the world to step in and I saw things with a critical eye instead of spiritual one. For none of us, whether Christian or not, has a right not to be humble. Just an insight in my daily Journey.