IMGOSH! I am so over the top right now. lol. Like I have a good bit of time to observe and the Empath in me is going nuts. My senses are more alert than ever and I am for sure able to discern really well right now. BUT, on the UP side I have Salty dog (formerly Lucifer) from across the street to keep me entertained, I play a lot of brain games to keep my mind occupied, I write and I do Yoga even when it makes me cry. Yes. Yoga can make me cry because it is the BEST anxiety/ stress reliever BUT it is also hard. But then when I do rarely get out and see others I know my Empath wire starts up. Then, I get more anxious with all the stuff rolling in my mind so back home to Yoga and Meditation! Goodness, I am a multi-freakout. hahahahahaha.
Most of you know Lucifer by now. He is the neighbors Chihuahua who has always been so mean and so scary that he can scare a dog over a 100 pounds into running from him with those sharp little teeth. If not, here is a quick summary. Lucifer, whom I will now just call “Salty Dog”, would attack and terrorize our neighborhood. People, animals, rocks, leaves and the list goes on every time he would jerk free from his masters hand ( a sweet but timid lady) and he would embark on his rampage, leash trailing behind him. He thought everything was deadly and needed him to kill it. including humans who would just be standing there. He would come after your ankles. we. all. ran. lol
But in 2020, Lucifer changed over the year. Yes, he still chases leaves, rocks, other animals and such but now he has stopped coming after me. He will just, stare, challenge my mind and then go on. We kind of came to a silent agreement this past year. we need more friends than enemies. lol. So, he is tempted at times but I guess he doesn’t smell fear on me anymore. who knows? Either way, from now on, I will call him Salty Dog. Unless he comes after me again. lol
This has been a year if I ever need to switch from negative to positive, this has been it. I realized how much negative was in my mind when battle after after mental battle erupted. Not to say i am totally negative because I have funny days as well but I have had to let go of a lot of it. Toxic thoughts, people, environment and more. But there, as in life, have been really good things and some really bad things that have happened this year. Maybe Covid made the bad things seem worse, I don’t know. So That is what I am trying to do. On the plus side, I have Lucifer (the Chihuahua guard dog to ensure a good chuckle when I am having really bad moments. I mean, as long as I can laugh safely away from him. Have a great day/evening everyone.
Could it be? Could it be possible the Lucifer I hate to love actually can be kind? Yes, it has happened. After my sweet Buddy passed (Lucifer’s arch enemy, along with every other breathing thing and well, anything actually. Rocks, leaves, trees, you get the idea. He attacked everything that little Chihuahua terror. But there is hope. After Buddy passed, my daughter decided I needed a dog and helped to find Sawyer. A small 9 year old Pom whom at first I just could not feel anything for. he has won me over and though he can never take Buddy’s place, he is a lot like Buddy in every way except color and I can walk him on a leash. (Buddy would flip like a fish on a hook,lol). Anyway, I was walking Sawyer and yes, here he comes. Lucifer. I went to run before my dog was assaulted when Sawyer ran to Lucifer. Lucifer actually greeted him. The neighbor and I were stunned as they rubbed noses and actually got along. So well that they Now have play time in her fenced back yard. Maybe 2020 does have some good in it after all.
Wow! Okay. For those who have followed my Parakeets, I homed them to a new home and the follow ups she is sending me are great. They are very happy. I just couldn’t get to them enough to spend quality time because I have a zoo of dumped off animals that I cannot get help with, my own dogs, and work! Yikes! But hey, I am blessed that it gets my mind off of Anxiety for a bit. I am duking it out with Lucifer the dog (just kidding) I actually laugh at him, unless he is off the leash and chasing me. he is the Houdini of leash escapes. I HAVE been doing Yoga, meditation, and Prayer. Lots of those. And I still fight anxiety but this has been a somewhat better week off and on. The only hard part is the Empath road has been high. I sure hope all of you have been having a great week!
It has been a busy week for my art projects and orders are coming on. My daughter started promoting it and BAM! it is filling up so I have not had a chance to get on here. So, I just wanted to say how blessed I feel about that. On other things, raven the delightful Shepherd got out again when she found another great escape. I had to chase her down, get a leash on her and wait for my husband to run home and fix the damage. lol. Lucifer the dog from across the street is back at his antics and chasing all things including me. (I escaped) But sadly, the flowers in the edge of my garden did not go without his wrath of punishment. His owner offered to do something for the damage but I just laughed and told her it was fine as long as it is flowers and not my ankles. lol. And my cats are indeed aliens who love to catch me off guard and scratch or bite me when I least expect it. Aaaah. Life is back to normal here. hahahaha. I hope you all have a great evening/day wherever you are!
I wrote recently about the loss of my beloved little Buddy, the Pomeranian/Papillion mix. After 14 years his heart just finally gave out. It had been enlarged on one part for a bit. So, walking in the early morning, I saw him. Lucifer the Chihuahua. At first we stared off but I guess he sensed my sadness. So, instead of charging at me, he turned with his mom and looked back once before trying to kill a blade of grass and a dried up leaf. I just stood there for a moment. I realized even little old Lucifer can have compassion. even if just for a moment.
I had to go out today and work some in the yard. It didn’t last long because the heat was intense I was getting burnt within 30 minutes. But I DID see Lucifer. His mom was walking him. It was so hot that even Lucifer only chased after a flying dragonfly or something flying and then tried to take down a pebble. But, he just didn’t have his usual fiery self going. I yelled out to the neighbor to see if he was okay and he looked up and then starting going back to their home. She assured me he just doesn’t do heat very well. What? Something that gets to little Lucifer? lol. Well, at least I saw him. It has been a while. But we both took our over heated selves in and he is probably terrifying ice cubes in his house. He likes those she said. lol. Have a great night/day fellow bloggers!
I actually went to the Yoga room and did some Yoga to clear my mind a bit, relieve some anxiety and just to do SOMETHING to bring tranquility. I did some prayers, some meditation and I even did Tai Chi. You would think my body would be rock tight but no. I am not. Why? because once I am done hunger sets in and I am bored so I eat. Junk. Then I try to make up for it with fruit and veggies. But all in all at least I do have something to help. Or at least I think I do. My writing has been so scrambled here lately I think I need a trip to the Beach. Oh wait. they are closing most of them again. Do saltwater baths act like the Ocean? just kidding. lol
As I had mentioned in the blog I just posted I had been away a couple of days so I wanted to go for a walk and get some calm in. Just to be clear, I use my WordPress on a desktop, not my phone so I write when I am here. 🙂 Anyway, I went and was about a half of a block when I spot him. Lucifer. The Chihuahua from Hades. He spots me. His owner smiles. I smile. Lucifer and I make eye contact and it is on. hahahaha. He is straining on his leash trying to get at me. I guess he has missed me and the squirrels must have been boring or the birds or the trees or whatever. All of it is a reason for him to attack. But, this time his owner was able to contain him on a new leash as he spiraled to me in a full run, teeth bared and all. Thank you for the welcome home. hahahahah. Needless to say. I will just stick to Yoga and such today. 🙂