I wrote recently about the loss of my beloved little Buddy, the Pomeranian/Papillion mix. After 14 years his heart just finally gave out. It had been enlarged on one part for a bit. So, walking in the early morning, I saw him. Lucifer the Chihuahua. At first we stared off but I guess he sensed my sadness. So, instead of charging at me, he turned with his mom and looked back once before trying to kill a blade of grass and a dried up leaf. I just stood there for a moment. I realized even little old Lucifer can have compassion. even if just for a moment.
I never imagined when I wrote yesterday about my dog that today he would have to leave us… I did stay up with him all night as seizure after seizure hit and the Vet was closed. I still hoped when he fell asleep at 5 a.m. he was going to be okay. Then this morning he had another seizure. His breathing got worse so we called the Vet and took him there. Our only solution was to put him to sleep. I am devastated. I held him in my arms as my sweet Vet talked us through it. My sweet Buddy peacefully slept for good as he rested his head onto my arm. I was beyond hysterical as the tears fell and are still falling. I came home and I realized my almost 15 year old friend would never greet me again. I miss him so very, very, much. I love you Sweet Buddy. I never thought yesterday would be your last day with me.