I found a part of the Yesterday me…. The good part… It came from a lot of Music, me time and a dream…

I AM excited. I do not know how or what brought it on or how I found it again except maybe through the music, time with myself, prayer or a dream i had. Maybe a combination of all. But I remembered her and I feel her inside of me. The part that was confident. The honest yet caring person. The happy person who approached life head on. The person who didn’t live with anxiety but hope and belief that it will work out. I lost all of that person somewhere and maybe I didn’t get but a part of her back but it was a part I needed really bad. i am hopeful this will help the current me to get back the part of me that helped me to love, laugh, be happy and survive. I realized that I AM happy of course but I felt guilt with it. I hope finding that old me brings itself to me now.

Never settle for love or life….It can be anything you want it to be…….

I have been on an awakening journey the last few weeks and it has been crazy. I have faced my Anxiety demons and sometimes I lost and sometimes I won. I have listened to music, I have prayed. I have done Yoga and I have had times I just meditated but one thing I have realized is how much I have settled for things I didn’t have to. As an Empath I let other’s negativity and hate change me. I hid instead of standing up after getting tired of them beating me down. But I have realized I was the Victim because I allowed it. So, never settle for less than what you deserve. ever.

Working on my Zombie book AND a Romance……..Two different books….. Lol.

I am writing on both while changing from one to the other and it is interesting to say the least. But I actually love it. It is keeping my mind occupied and I go to the Zoms when I want to be alert and challenged and then to romance when I need to relax and feel all emotional inside. This is where I go when I want to rekindle my romantic heart. Then I go back to my world of zombies when I want to fight the evil and the bad so the good can hopefully, win for the most part. I hope it keeps going well like this!

watching some older Halloween flicks…. lol.. Times sure have changed yet not…

The acting is cheesy, the screaming is so funny but then again, some of the movies I see now are just as bad. The acting is terrible and the although all of the scenes are more realistic, it seems that I am finding myself captivated by these oldies. I think I like them better. 🙂

2020 has, thus far, been a mind bender. ……..

2020 has been the strangest year I have ever encountered I guess in my life. Viruses, hate, protest, division, monster bugs, new species of every area found, fires, tornadoes, tsunamis, hurricanes, draining of my discernment/empath mind, emotional vampires have been rampant. people losing their minds and the list goes on. Ouch! I have never seen a year like this one before and I have to say it has been so far a Mind Bender.! Wow! But I come here for the calm. The place where I share, care, read other blogs and have my read. So, I think today will be a reading day. I need some of YOUR writings to calm my storm and share in yours. or your anime, laughter, joy and tears. Have a great day/ night!

As Chaos reigns in my mind…. I still the water of Anxiety….

As you know if you read my blogs, I have anxiety. I do several things as you also know to try and calm it. I do Yoga. Not as often as I should. I breathe slow. I pray. I fight this battle that on some days is great and some days it is easily calmed. why? I don’t know. A great Universal question I guess. But I have started to saying in all ways and especially when I pray, there is nothing I can do about until I learn to conquer it. You take it. Then when it comes, I just keep that mindset. Things are what they are and I will not be able to change them by getting anxious so let it go. Soooo, this is experiment number 2, 9999. We will have to see where it goes. Have a great day/night blogging friends!

okay. let’s try this…

Thank you my friend for trying to help me. I am using some of the tools you showed me Raistlin0903. I am trying this now because I am getting so agitated with this. So here goes. Hi everyone. I am just playing around on this to see how these things will work. I am getting some of it! Thank you my sweet friend!

Well the Zombie deer have arrived in many of our States….lol.. I have heard of a new species of Dragonfly. lol……..

Actually they have been around for a while. Similar to mad cow disease but now they are saying humans can contract it from their urine, etc. etc. and of course by eating them. But it cautions mainly hunters and say’s to watch for the signs of a Zombie type walk and stuff like that. So, I am waiting anxiously for the Dinosaur eggs. I think maybe I will select a one of those tiny ones that group together but I will just have one. Kind of like a baby lizard. lol. Or maybe next we will have a new version of dragonflies. I posted a pic here of the alleged toxic blue lone Dragonfly of the Amazon. lol. No, just a joke pic I made. I have to do something. so I am creating my own monsters. lol. I think I might need some interaction with another human or two. Have a great day/night fellow bloggers!