Another love taken. I just miss you. I miss I couldn’t see you as you were dying because of a Virus. I miss your smile, your hugs. I just miss you. I miss you all. I wish you could be here to see the new baby that is coming and be here with your family. we love you.
Sometimes I am laughing and I am will be in the middle of staying busy and the tears will come. I do not even know until they fall down my cheeks. I am trying to be positive but the pain just hits and it feels like a physical blow. I wish I could learn to control this anxiety better than I do. I feel so strong the ways an Empath will, that the few I am around when they are at every peak of emotion. I can feel it through calls and sometimes even text. Who even feels emotions through text? And sadly, I am usually am right. Does that me feel empowered? No, it weakens me. So, I just had to say that I AM trying but I am struggling too but yes I know I am blessed and I am thankful for that.
It has just been tough. Due to immunity issues I am still home bound for now. I have been doing Yoga, Prayer, meditation, essential oils, and just about anything to keep me off this stupid anxiety but it is really hard. Then, as usual, I over think things a 1,000 to a million times. haha. I am doing okay but just honestly, a tough one but I am still counting my blessings as I battle my mind.