Yep. Good old Lucifer, the tiny terror that plagues our neighborhood. They went on vacation so we all had a reprieve but hi there. He is home now. Again patrolling on his leash and waiting to bite our ankles or pull us down maybe like a zombie waiting for the kill. lol. This dog has no words for how mean he is. Yesterday he was chasing after the poor cat he happened to see sitting on a porch while his master/mommy was trying to reign him in. For such a small dog he sure is strong and often breaks off his leash. I wonder how much she spends on those in a year. So, haha, welcome home Lucifer (my name for him, not hers). We all look forward to more terror as you stalk us. With love (and fear and shaking hearts) we are in awe (not) that you made it back safely. In reality we hoped maybe she had found you a new home. hahaha
I often find that I am betrayed over and over. People I trust smile in my face but are talking about me behind my back. They agree with me and then they agree with the person who is doing wrong or using me. As an Empath, I am not stupid but I just and on the other hand I guess it is just common sense. I am loyal to a fault. I guess I should realize that loyalty and backing someone up and being a real person to them just does not exist anymore. People just constantly stab me in the back and then I forgive and forgive and keep staying loyal. It is a trait I value although it comes at the cost of the pain when I am betrayed. Once again. Maybe there are others like me and I know there are here but in my life, not so many in person. It kind of sucks.
How much more can you drain from me? How many times do you need to assault my mind only to satisfy your own needs? I am so over trying to help these kind of people but my life and mind keep doing it. I can never find a resolution for them, I walk on tip toes, I am just fed up with it and yet I still do it. It is time to try and get these emotional vampires to suck the lives out of themselves. lol.
Living with Panic and Anxiety and being an Empath/ Discerner is no easy task let me tell you. So, I do use Yoga as a way of releasing it. Yes, I stay on beginner level at times because my energy has been zapped so I do that and it slowly works me back up by easing the anxiety, emotional vampirism and panic. BUT, it is very hard at times. I also use my Tai-Chi to level me out as well as prayer. I find all forms help me to find a balance in the crazy world of my mind. I am blessed but I am constantly on guard. So, for those who may suffer these trials as well as me, try this as a means of escape. It really does work! Have a great day/night wherever you are1