I am working on more fairy photos again… They bring me joy… I need it right now.

So, I am going to work on more fairy photos that I create because they bring me joy. They make me smile. I love all things fairy and I just love the essence of the thought of them… I will try and post when created. The one on here is one I have already done.

I am a Yoga snail..…….Not me in pic.

I just commented on this to someone so I thought yeah, I guess I should explain. haha. I am a Yoga snail. Three years now and I am still in beginners stances. BUT, I figure as long as I am trudging along, all effort matters. I still do it and I am obviously good with my poses now since I am snailing along with it but maybe I will try the next level. I am just comforted at this level so I say, Snail on yoga attempter, snail on. hahahaha. The PICTURE posted is obviously not me as I am a woman but I figured it fits sooo well. : hahahahah

I find it hard to write on the Holiday season…

Maybe because I lost you…
maybe the memories are so painful yet the lights so beautiful…
I feel guilt and hurt…
I want to write but I seem to find nothing there…
I have things to write about…
But then nothing to say…
I am full of stories but your book ended and I find the words empty…
I want to express myself but then I look at your picture…
The Holidays. Halloween, Christmas and those were your favorites..
I have to remember I am not betraying you by living. By writing. By smiling.
But the Holidays make it so. very. hard.

No, I have not forgotten you….I love you . Always.

In my post I used to write more often about the daughter I lost and sometimes I still do but especially at this time of year, I have to hold on to my sanity. But No, Nikki, I have not forgotten you. I never would. You were, as well as your baby brother Ryan I lost so much of my heart. So is your sister who is still and I thank God for that because if she had not been, I think I would have truly lost my mind that day. I miss your smile, your humor, your laughter and I wish you were still here with us. I still cry when I write about you and I still cry when I hear your songs that you loved.
I laugh sometimes now at your funny memories but I cannot ever forget the loss of when you left us. It still hurts so bad and you were truly so good. You had moments like everyone but I swear sometimes, I DO believe you were an Earthly angel
Your ability to keep my grounded with my hot temper, your way of never seeing bad in anyone, your love for making others laugh and your genuine love of life. You just LOVED life. Everything was beautiful to you. I mean even the things I so often over look. A strange type of rock, the shape of a tree, people, just everything. No. I have not forgotten you my sweet love. A mother never forgets the child/children she has loved and lost.