I am now trying (I know, always trying something new but hey,lol) the thought system of just trying to believe and really believing each day is going to have something great. Something in the day that captures my attention even if it just a beautiful butterfly. Something that lets me know, hey it is okay and today is good! I know life throws us punches and recently learning more about addicts and addiction, I NEED to see the beauty in things or my anxiety will take over. so that is my new yoga thought or whatever you want to call it so fellow friends and bloggers, I hope you believe today that YOU will find something beautiful in a world sometimes filled with junk. 🙂
Living with or having a family member who is addicted is really hard. If you have someone you love dating an addict, that is hard as well. It is a hard and long road. It is such a drain in so many ways because you love them but you cannot stop them. You might find yourself enabling them because you are desperate. or you might be trying to get your loved one away from an addict before they turn out just the same. It is too draining when you watch, worry or living with someone and search everywhere to see if there was a stash.
This is just the beginning of a nightmare that never ends until the loved one is dead or finally quits through the grace of God. It takes the lives of the ones loving the addict because the addict can only think of their drugs but the friends and most of all family worry, cry, panic, drive themselves insane and just spend their lives filled with anxiety and there are many who cannot afford the expensive rehabs. It is a sad story for the addict and the ones who love them.
Vapes that are addicting teens now, drugs, alcohol, even cigarettes which I am trying really hard to quit. I used to be a “recreational” smoker, quitting during peak times when I was active repelling, hiking, climbing and etc. The slowly, cigarettes crept in and now I am trying to quit. I do not smoke in my car, or in my house or when I have coffee and I never have but I just do not like them anymore so I am trying. I have people I know that I am sadly watching.
They battle alcohol as it destroys their lives, drugs which change them and take over their life and become their God. Teens I see vaping young kids, 13, 14, 15 but I cannot stop them because they are not people I even know or the ones that are well, I have told their parents. It is just sad how addiction to anything can take your life and destroy it. Physically or emotionally or all.
I hate addiction and the ruin it brings.
This has been such a weird days! Ups and downs! Chaos then calm. Hectic and then smooth. Anxiety shoots up and then I calm it down. I am just over the top but then I just breathe. And I realize this is life. Beautiful but full of surprises. LOL.
Life is beautiful but scary and sad but good.
Love is blind, hard, beautiful and needed.
Happiness is what we make it or how we break it.
I am an emotional roller coaster on this journey and it is crazy.
This world is just an exotic place with so many exotic, unique people
And we are all filled with so many different thoughts, feelings
emotions and words.
Some of us never seem to have a bad day while some of us strive to get
Anxiety, pain, hurt or depression.
Others are always laughing and happy and it seems never bothered by
But I think deep down we all experience many of these emotions, we
just live them in a different way.
Whew! Want to have your heart rate soar and sweat pour all over you and just feel like you cannot catch a breath? Come visit us here in mud Ga. and it is a guarantee! OMGOSH! heat index today is 105 to 110 degrees. If I didn’t have anxiety I would now. Geez. We have 10 months of Summer here, two months of winter, depending on the year. Rarely without the benefit of snow but there is a southern touch that makes us all stay here I guess. lol. Occasionally we do get two days of Spring and maybe, just maybe, a week of Fall. OUCH! So that is my day in Georgia. hahaha.
Julian and Jon pulled into their house and Jon jumped out of the truck, as usual, while Julian carefully took his time getting his satchel out. Although identical twins in appearance, their body build, and personalities were nothing alike. While Julian was casual, tall, and slim, studious and a bit reserved like his dad, Brian, Jon was stockier from playing football and zoomed like a hurricane, taking on his mother Helens personality. So, it was no surprise to Julian a few minutes later when Jon came tearing out of the house while Julian was still getting organized. The difference was the yelling.
“Go, go, go, go!” Jon was screaming, and blood was running down his arm. “Get in the truck, NOW!” Julian got in, confused as Jon ran to the passenger door and jumped in. Julian saw his mother stand at the open door, blood drooling from her mouth. “What’s wrong with mom”?
“Just go, Julian, before she goes crazy again! She bit me!”
Julian looked over at his brother confused but when their mother started toward them, he backed the truck up and headed out the drive.
“Jon, we need to get her help! That is our mom! What happened?”
Jon was looking at a bite on his arm. “No helping her bro, she has turned zombie, now go!”
Julian would have laughed except for the bite on his brother’s arm. “Jon, she is not a zombie. She is a nurse. You watch too many zombie flicks”. Jon looked over at Julian. “Seriously? Did you see her eyes? Like all black and weird man and I walked into the kitchen and she came up behind me and took a bite out of my arm. Crap, I am probably gonna turn.”
Julian rolled his eyes. “She is not a freaking zombie and you are not going to turn into anything unless you turn any weirder than you already are”.
Jon brushed his black hair from his eyes. “Oh really, well explain to me then what just happened? Jon looked at his brother. “She is a zombie. I am telling you she turned. And dad is probably in there somewhere waiting for somebody to chomp on.” Their dad worked from home three days a week and this was one of the days he was supposed to be home.
Julian shook his head. “Dad is probably in town getting something for dinner. But we will go to the hospital and get your arm checked.”
Jon shook his head. “No freaking way. If mom was there today and she was or at least she was headed there this morning when we all left so the whole place has probably turned. Take me to urgent care and hurry before I turn.”
Julian rolled his eyes again. “Get a grip dude. I mean” … but before he could finish they saw a man standing in the road and as Julian swerved to miss him, they recognized their dad when they got close.