While I still have internet… Thanks! For reading my crazy life story!

I looked back and my post are all over about everything! From the loss of my daughter to family to anxiety and panic to well almost anything. Thanks so much for hanging with me and reading them as I also tried to read all of yours in sections. I just read a different 10 or so each day or more when I have time each from a different writer. It really, really means a lot! Trying to make this quick in case internet doesn’t hold up with hotspot since I am on computers not phones. It does okay but slow and then skips out for about ten minutes or so. Long enough to lose writing.

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Omgosh..This is getting crazy! NOW….

They are building houses in my sub and they keep hitting the cable line even though they marked it off. I am having to rely on hot spot just to be able to get on for bits of time because I am afraid I will go over. we have called and called but they said they get it fixed and then a line gets nabbed again. Getting so agitated. UGH! Rant for the day!

sleep….. need it……..ugh

I need to do sleep. I will be exhausted and then get to bed and boom! Wide awake then exhausted all day. ugh. I am on a roll to try and find any and all remedies. I cut back on coffee, eating too late, no sugar, tried working out early and later. I think I have tried every method I could find. I just wonder if any of you have this issue…. I am so tired I am not even sure if I am writing this correctly! super ugh. And to follow your dreams you kind of have to sleep. hahahahahaha

OMGOSH…. Internet went down due to storms.. Took forever!

So the storms kept coming here in Ga. and omgosh, it was an internet nightmare especially since I still use the good old desktop. It was off then on and off then on and finally today after hours of being off it is on again so typing fast while I can!
So, hopefully, it will stay up now so I can get back to writing and checking out all of your post as I go. I check as many as I can then more the next day. Lol. 🙂

It is hardtop deal with Anxiety sometimes….

Some days are great now and some days I am just a wreck. I have never had something so hard to deal with or understand. I cannot seem to fix this no matter what I do. Yes, it is better than it was but I do prayer, yoga, meditation, stay busy and think positive. I try not to over think anymore, a challenge in itself.
I try to do ALL of the things I have read about and I ty to just “let” things go but I swear, there are still days I am like freaked out. Today both of my arms hurt. why? who freaking knows? I have cut back on a lot of things. I hate it. I hate the feeling it gives me at times. I have even become more social. Oh well, I guess for whatever reason, it is still a fight no matter what I do. But I just keep trying to get better with it. I think maybe I need therapy for my daughter and losing her but after 12 years, I thought I was coping okay with it but I don’t think I am. ANXIETY and PANIC sucks. lol