Yoga……. How it helps and is it hard?

I do yoga. Not as often as I like or as much as I should but I do it. It is calming, it helps you to relax but what I love is that it is also exercise. It seems so easy. At first. But it does work your muscles and at first I was like, “no way” this is getting extreme but I held on and although I am still not into the intense yoga yet, I still come out refreshed and it makes me more energetic and feeling less stressed. So if you are considering it, I would say YES do it! It is so worth it and not as easy as it seems. But it soothes your mind, gently challenges your body until your body is ready for ,example, my hardest enemy, hahahahahaha, downward dog. THAT one gets but I love it!

Life can be beautiful… Life can be hard…

Life can be beautiful
Happy and filled with laughter
and so many great things
And life can be hard
We get the good and we get the bad
We take and we give
We love and we lose
We laugh and we cry
I guess that is why life is so interesting. You experience a taste of every emotion and every example. We are not exempt from the good or the bad.

What the mind believes….And Anxiety..

As most of you know by now, I deal with panic and anxiety. I have tried many methods that work such as yoga, meditation, Tai Chi and more but sometimes I just cannot stop to do that. recently, I was really thinking about what I could do on those times or how to “fix” this. I have only been doing it for about a week or so but I am interested in seeing how it turns out. So I wanted to share it with you. The mind processes words so fast, that have you ever noticed if you question someone on something and they deny it, even if you know they are known to be dishonest, at first, you believe it. Your mind accepts and believes it until over time you realize you cannot believe them and your mind starts doubting them until finally, you do not believe them at all.

I decided to try that with the panic and anxiety. I am starting with words. So when a such as nervous or I am feeling panicked or whatever, I replace that word with, for example, tranquil, over and over. I believe in that word. Or another example, is fine. Then I say I am fine. over and over and over. I am trying to re-train my mind back to healthy thoughts and words even if my environment may not be the best at the time. So, we will see, L.W. where it goes and I really hope it works and wanted to share with my fellow anxiety and panic peeps.

I love my fellow bloggers and yes I do read and like the post but…..

I LOVE being able to have such a variety of fellow bloggers and we can all have so many different things to share! I have just so many things we can share about. Animals, panic, anxiety, loss of a child, parenting, life in general and poetry and so much more! I read so many and I take turns to get to them all as I can BUT I HAVE A PROBLEM. I read a fellow blogger who said they will like and then it goes away and I also have this problem! Some go through and I HOPE stick and some do not stay at all! It bothers me because I want my fellow bloggers to know I love their stuff and I do read and like it but this makes it appear that I do not. So, I am just letting you all know thank you for reading and liking my stuff and I hope you can see where I read and like yours too!

Why is it still so damn hard? …..

It has been 12 years today since you left us. I thought this year was going to be easier that before years because I had not been crying as much but I woke in tears this morning. Just that quick. But it is what it is. I guess my philosophy on it is that it is the life of a parent who has lost a child or children and I have lost two. But it is just weird how some years I got through with laughter, most with tears but still I would thing ok all the blessings I DO have and that she never suffered and that she is probably happier now. But like one guy said the other day, “When people say God needed another angel, that is great until yours is taken.” Just a tough day I guess. Love to all of us who have lost our children.

Life as we knew it…..

Life as our family knew it is gone but not the memories. We have lost our daughter, a son and a nephew at 13 to cancer. But we still have the memories and the love. We still have the photos that it has only been recently that we can look and actually smile at just how wonderful they were. Their laughs, their joy, their silliness and their life. Life as we knew it will never be the same but love as we knew it is still as strong as the day they left.