We didn’t ask for this and it is hard living with it even as we try and manage it and tread on. It is complicated, it is hard and not ONE of us who suffer from it say, “I just love this issue and I am so happy to have it” and if anyone does, I do not know them. It is a difficult and lonely road because it is in the mind. All I can say if you do not understand it is, just imagine the same dream night after night of being in a place where you never know what is around the corner and you never know if something is going to jump out and get you. And no matter what you do, you still get that same dream night after night after night. That is how it feels to me. So please keep in mind, we are trying. We are fighting it, our desire is to over come it. But while we are still there, please understand that it is hard to live a life where most people cannot understand it. We are not asking you to. we are just asking you to be there. To love us. To hold a hand out in some form when we need it.