Life is not always a ray of sunshine but it is the Sunshine of love that can help a person suffering or a cloud of rejection that can destroy.

Another long journey of people upset or mad or hurt because I reacted differently than I should. They are right that they do not understand but the way to help is to accept what makes me “strange” to them and maybe try and understand instead of turning their backs and saying, “We don’t deserve this”. Well, I don’t either but here I am. I spent my life until 3 and a half years ago trying to help people, animals, family, friends, etc. until the trauma I guess from the last few years or something from my childhood gave me anxiety, depression and panic attacks. I have an issue but I am not mentally ill only emotionally traumatized by the power of anxiety. The worst reaction I can get is being disowned again. I am not a bad person but I do see some things differently. I just don’t play roles. I am who I am. Loved by very many isn’t one of them. The bridge is easier to cross if someone is there holding your hand.

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Author: artista10

Living Life.

4 thoughts on “Life is not always a ray of sunshine but it is the Sunshine of love that can help a person suffering or a cloud of rejection that can destroy.”

  1. Those three sentences, “I am not a bad person but I do see some things differently. I just don’t play roles. I am who I am. Loved by very many isn’t one of them”, sound so much like our daughter who also suffers from anxiety, depression, and panic attacks. I long for her to have loyal people around her who will accept her differences, instead of reject her because of them. Sometimes we, her parents, have been her only companions. I feel for you, and hope you also have some accepting, compassionate people around you.

    1. I have one Candice but sometimes one is enough. Thank you so much for being so loving to your daughter. We do not mean some of the things we do but when the oppression or anxiety or panic hits, it puts you in a state of terror. Then, I know for me, the world is a different place but instead of, like you, her parents, understanding and loving her, people lash out at me and tell me I am in a dark place and I am selfish. But I know different. I know, in my heart, I am a loving and kind person who just has difficulty when this hits. Please have your daughter join my blog if she gets on here or if she wants to. i am trying to help myself as well as those who suffer to know it is okay. This is one of our refuges. Thank you and God bless you that she has you as such wonderful parents! 🙂

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