A poem for Panic & Anxiety

                                      DEMONS of the MIND

 You cannot help what you don’t understand.

The fear, the darkness that threatens to overtake me.

The way my own mind scares me at times and makes me think things

that are not even true. The way i think

The way I love

 The way i cry

The loneliness

The fright

The desire to need and feel love

To be accepted, needed, wanted.

Then pushing it away

Out of fear it will rejected.

The fear of not being in control of my life.

The torture of trying to understand

reality

honesty

fake people

life

hope.

All of these are the Demons of my mind. To help me……. You have to understand them.

L.S. Rockel Copyright 2014

Anger vs. Love and Forgiveness

Ever get really angry at someone and just feel hatred toward someone who did you wrong? Maybe they talked bad about you, lied about you, cursed you or stole away your love. Maybe they betrayed you in one of a possible hundred ways.

Anger and hate are such pleasant retaliations against someone who has wronged you .The worst are the passive/ aggressive ones who are nice to you but in that way that you know they are truly pissed inside and only YOU & THEM know what they are doing. You could never prove it because they are just too smooth at what they do.

It is such sweet revenge to “get” back at your enemies or betrayers. Knowing how much you freak them out when you post it all over social media. Snapchat, your blog, instagram, face book, or etc. In this day and time the possibilities are endless. Then when you know you “got” em and it hit the mark.

Pretty soon, you are not speaking, and anytime either of you get you are telling others and on the phone and going back and forth on that “social media” for the world to see. How pathetic they are those scumbags. Seldom is revenge NOT sweet. It is the long term effects you don’t know are are coming.

Before you know it, another person, and another , and another has done you wrong. I mean, can you believe it? What is WRONG with these people? After a while it becomes a daily ritual to see who you can get back at or who you can exact your revenge upon.

Now comes the hard part. Love and Forgiveness. Love and forgiving are not that easy sometimes. Love is letting your heart open up to accept people for whom and what they are. Flawed. We all are. Love is knowing sometimes, you will NEVER get a return or investment back no matter how hard you try.

Love means that nio matter what, you refuse to hate that person regardless of what they do. However, love does not mean you have to be stepped on,  or abused. It simply means we can love them but walk away or take a step back and let go.

Forgiveness is the hardest sometimes especially if you know in your heart you are the one who did someone wrong or they were the one who broke your heart. Then it is a battle to find a way to reach deep inside your soul, let go of what happened and forgive. It is especially hard when you know that same person will say they forgive and they are going to go behind your back and do it again.

BUT, that is the true ART of forgiveness. You forgive when you truly let go, forgive and realize YOU will will NEVER change that person. You only have to change YOU. Letting go of the poison they have put into your life enables you to go on and do better things so you can enjoy the beauty of this world God gave us to enjoy. That is when you trally begin to live.

A Touch of Humor Today

I wrote this when I watched a lifetime movie. I do not like like lifetime but got talked into it. lol. So I thought this song was good for it.

A COUNTRY and/or LOVE SONG

We lived together for 12 long years,

before you finally said I do.

I didn’t know that piece of paper would mean for us that we were through.

You said you would love me forever,

I didn’t know that meant for a day.

Cause you left me the very next morning,

When Piggly wiggly Sue, stole your heart away.

Now I’m stuck with six kids, ages 11 down to three

While you took her bowlin’

And you watched movies in 3D.

My heart has been broken, yeah, broken in two

So I hope you are happy and she’s happy with you.

I had us big dreams you know, cookouts and figs,

But you left me here, with kids, chickens and pigs.

Well, it’s been a month now and I’m starting to heal,

I guess in love, well, nothin is real.

So here is some news for you, Romeo Joe,

A tidbit of info you ought to know.

Last week my BFF Kathy set me up on a date

I have really found true love, guess it aint never too late.

The next night  he gave me a ring, a real beauty divine,

This morn we got married at quarter till nine.

L.S. Rockel